Another day in the life...
No random poem of the day, just me talking for once. Which can be a good or bad thing. You can take it either way.
I have no idea how I have been able to update so much lately, but I love it. It makes me feel, well just over all happy that I am doing it. I like to write and create so I guess I am doing a little of both, but at the same time I am letting my emotions out on paper and I love that feeling almost more than anything. To let it all just melt and run on to the open electronic paper that keeps it there for later times of reflecting.
Not to much exciting has happened lately except turning 16 and going to Disney World. I am pretty much done with drill. I had three different concerts I was in over the course of 3 weeks leaving no week night or weekend nights free for me, and if I did have free moments I would be typing random things up for my lj, sleeping or doing homework in which I should be doing more of so I can become all caught up. I just don't feel inspired to do so. I have no want other than pleasing my parents to do it for and also the fact that I do not wish to have unhappy parents. I will get all my grades where they need to be, but you know that feeling when you have been doing so much and you just don't want to do it anymore. That is pretty much how I am feeling right now. I have rushes where I want to get it all over with and so I can return to a normal sane life, but others like today when I just want to drop it all and sharpen my saw all though I know I still must push myself in to doing some work.
Tonight was our Drill Banquet. It was good, not anything to grand, but I could careless. I love my coach and my team even if I hate them at times. I was awarded with "The Most Inspirational" award and I have a plaque and trophy. We had some yummy orental/hawaiian type food and watched our Drill DVD which I loved. I will miss doing all that stuff and know I will regret not doing it next year, but in the long run I think it is time to move on with my life and do something that I want to do for the rest of my life. Our coach is amazing even though at times I wish she would be more organized. I felt so bad when she had done so much for us and no one said a word of thanks or love towards her tonight. You would think someone would have, but no. The officers didn't even think of saying anything when they gave there remarks on Drill. I wanted to stand up and say something, but didn't. My bad, I know. No one thought of giving her a gift or a token of our appreciation. It was horrible. So I have taken it to myself to see that we get her something amazing and heart felt so that she may have it before we all go our separate ways. It is so so wrong. People these days just don't know what is right and proper. I myself feel ashamed.
Anyways, I should get to work on makeup so I can have a normal life again. I am promising that this Saturday I will have a full on update about Sweet 16 and Disney World, but until the next time I can post, Ttfn.
♥/JeSs
(Wow re-reading this, I must say I suck with my writing skills right now. Will update with a revision of this that sounds better in a gramatical sense. Sorry you have to read it like this, but I have no time to revise right now.)
I have no idea how I have been able to update so much lately, but I love it. It makes me feel, well just over all happy that I am doing it. I like to write and create so I guess I am doing a little of both, but at the same time I am letting my emotions out on paper and I love that feeling almost more than anything. To let it all just melt and run on to the open electronic paper that keeps it there for later times of reflecting.
Not to much exciting has happened lately except turning 16 and going to Disney World. I am pretty much done with drill. I had three different concerts I was in over the course of 3 weeks leaving no week night or weekend nights free for me, and if I did have free moments I would be typing random things up for my lj, sleeping or doing homework in which I should be doing more of so I can become all caught up. I just don't feel inspired to do so. I have no want other than pleasing my parents to do it for and also the fact that I do not wish to have unhappy parents. I will get all my grades where they need to be, but you know that feeling when you have been doing so much and you just don't want to do it anymore. That is pretty much how I am feeling right now. I have rushes where I want to get it all over with and so I can return to a normal sane life, but others like today when I just want to drop it all and sharpen my saw all though I know I still must push myself in to doing some work.
Tonight was our Drill Banquet. It was good, not anything to grand, but I could careless. I love my coach and my team even if I hate them at times. I was awarded with "The Most Inspirational" award and I have a plaque and trophy. We had some yummy orental/hawaiian type food and watched our Drill DVD which I loved. I will miss doing all that stuff and know I will regret not doing it next year, but in the long run I think it is time to move on with my life and do something that I want to do for the rest of my life. Our coach is amazing even though at times I wish she would be more organized. I felt so bad when she had done so much for us and no one said a word of thanks or love towards her tonight. You would think someone would have, but no. The officers didn't even think of saying anything when they gave there remarks on Drill. I wanted to stand up and say something, but didn't. My bad, I know. No one thought of giving her a gift or a token of our appreciation. It was horrible. So I have taken it to myself to see that we get her something amazing and heart felt so that she may have it before we all go our separate ways. It is so so wrong. People these days just don't know what is right and proper. I myself feel ashamed.
Anyways, I should get to work on makeup so I can have a normal life again. I am promising that this Saturday I will have a full on update about Sweet 16 and Disney World, but until the next time I can post, Ttfn.
♥/JeSs
(Wow re-reading this, I must say I suck with my writing skills right now. Will update with a revision of this that sounds better in a gramatical sense. Sorry you have to read it like this, but I have no time to revise right now.)