[Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNDERAGE
anonymous
December 3 2012, 06:55:14 UTC
They're halfway through the show that night when Louis pulls him over by his elbow and points out at the crowd. Harry gives him a placating grin, used to Louis' fascination with the literary talents of their fans, and breaks his gaze to search the audience for whatever sign has caught his boyfriend's attention. He finds it easily and has a feeling of deja vu at the situation. Of course Louis would pick a pink one. When Harry finally makes out the words-a task that was delayed significantly by the excessive use of glitter-he can't help the yelp of a laugh that escapes his mouth. He gives the girl a helpless wave and turns to raise his eyebrows at Louis.
Bit young, he mouths. Louis just shrugs and holds in his giggles as they end the song.
Before the band can move to the next one, Harry holds his hand up for them to wait. “Before we get into this next song, I'd like to talk to you all a bit about sex.” The cheers are deafening and he has to wait a full thirty seconds until he can speak again and be sure he's heard. “I just want you to know that as much as we joke about shagging someone in every city, we still all believe it should be special.” He knows the boys are giving him strange looks by now, but he feels like he needs to say this, even if he can't put his finger on why, exactly.
He points at the sign slowly lowering in the audience. The crowd has gone fairly quiet save for a few awws and he clears his through before continuing, “I'm not going to deflower you. I love you all too much to ever take that from you.” The screams are back, declarations of I love you, too! falling on his ears as he turns to wink at a grinning Louis.
That night in the hotel room, as Louis takes his time spreading him open, preparing to lick and twist until he's begging for release, Harry tilts his head down and beams at the man between his legs. “I love you,” he whispers, and the admission gives Louis pause. They hadn't said it to each other yet but both boys can feel it.
“I love you, too, Harry."
Later, both boys are laying in a mess of sheets and come and sweat when Harry turns his head and presses a kiss to Louis' temple.
Yes, he thinks, definitely better than the first time.
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What? Quit looking at me like that! Did you really think I'd go through fixing Harry's first time (with suspiciously forgiving time travel) and not help him find actual love? Do you hear yourself sometimes? I think you might be drunk. Lay off the wine coolers, yeah?
Anyways, this was a fucking blast to write, even if I had do all the HTML formatting (and editing, because I'm lazy) while posting because I don't have an LJ and I didn't know my excessive italics would be obliterated.
Re: [Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNDER
anonymous
December 3 2012, 23:31:15 UTC
Thank you! I'm like red all over. I've never posted fic before--though I like constantly write it--and that comment makes me want to fill every prompt ever. I just hate when people abandon something so I won't post an incomplete story and I can never finish my own prompts.
Re: [Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNDER
anonymous
December 3 2012, 23:53:06 UTC
Thank you! I'm glad you saw it through!
Selfcest is hard for me to write as a PWP because the characters can't run off into the sunset together. Closure is needed, and that's why I added the gradual memory changes with Louis at the end there.
It was all very self-indulgent, too, as I mentioned I like to sing booooooyfriends when I write Larry and that brings me great joy. Like, you can't even know.
Re: [Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNDER
anonymous
December 4 2012, 00:06:42 UTC
Eep! Thank you for noticing! As I was writing I was like oh god I hope people get this. It makes so much sense in my head for time travel to work like this. I'm smiling so hard right now that you called it clever.
I kind of want to sob with relief that you guys like this. I read so much fic that for people to like mine, it's just marvelous.
Re: [Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNDER
anonymous
December 4 2012, 10:17:26 UTC
This was lovely! Harry was so sweet to little!Harry that I kind of wanted them to end up together :3 No, but I did like the ending and how Harry ended up enjoying being fucked and and give up control. <3
Gah, I wish I could get you to write little!Harry domming the fuck out of 18 y o Harry... Hehe. I didn't say anything.
Re: [Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNDER
anonymous
December 4 2012, 19:12:44 UTC
Thank you for loving it. Thank you for reading it in the first place, really.
Haha, I'm sorry time travel is such a pain in the arse and doesn't let Harry date his past self. But, god, imagine that he could. Imagine if he joined the band. Harry harmonizing with himself, live? I need a minute.
And as for that thing that you definitely didn't say...
...that sounds hot. I... I might. Dude. I fucking might. I have such OCD, though, that I can't just insert it. He needs to be willing to give up control with little!Harry while still being jaded. That's a lot of dialogue, but I might be able to... oh. OH SHIT I HAVE AN IDEA. Oh fuck I have to write this down.
Okay, seriously, you're the best. I've kind of missed writing this 'verse since I posted the fic and now I get to go back into it and GAH FETUS!HARRY I'M COMING FOR YOU, DARLING.
Re: [Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNDER
anonymous
December 4 2012, 11:42:38 UTC
Ahhh, I wish you weren't anon so I could properly love you! That was really well-written and very very hot. Great use of vocabulary (I'm a sucker for it), and Past!Harry's characterization was really good! I loved how unjaded and hopeful he was. Endgame Larry was perrrfect.
Re: [Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNDER
anonymous
December 4 2012, 19:35:45 UTC
Thank you! I'm incredibly flattered.
I'm actually purely anon. I don't have an LJ nor have I posted anything before now. But your comment kind of makes me want to?
Also, thank you for the vocabulary compliment. I get a little crazed trying not to use the same adjectives too closely together (Harry's eyes are so fucking fond when he looks at him that Zayn is overwhelmed by an overwhelming fondness for the boy) or have like a list of attributes that all mean the same thing (i.e. Harry was beautiful: gorgeous and fit and stunning and god, Louis could really just fucking die at how hot he was) so I'm glad you appreciate it.
And, lbr, all Larry is perfect. Perfect idiot boyfriends.
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anonymous
December 4 2012, 20:20:08 UTC
OP HERE I apoligize for not writing that in the reply title, live journal doesn't like me very much.
Anyway, I think it's possible that you've just written what is one of my, if not my ultimate, favorite fills. I'm not lying when I say tht you should get a livejournal or AO3 or something and just write because this was literally perfect and way more than I wanted. If I'm honest, you could write about an apple falling out of a tree and it'd be amazing. So thank you so much for filling this. And yes, your porn was hot.
Re: e: [Fill] Go Fuck Yourself (10/10) (past!Harry/present!Harry) WARNINGS: NONCON, SELFCEST, AND UNding0esDecember 5 2012, 04:17:57 UTC
Oh my loooord. I am like beet red. I'm sososo glad that you liked it, as it wouldn't exist without that gem of a prompt. I didn't even know sexgod!Harry/fetus!Harry was a thing I could want. I kind of had to write it.
And as you can see I've succumbed to peer pressure and created an LJ account. I have a bunch of stuff I need to finish for school before I can really think about writing on a regular basis. I'm an accounting major, so... this has absolutely no value for my degree. It is fun, though.
Oh, and my apple!fic is shoddy at best, sorry to burst your bubble. It's riddled with purple prose. Just awf.
Bit young, he mouths. Louis just shrugs and holds in his giggles as they end the song.
Before the band can move to the next one, Harry holds his hand up for them to wait. “Before we get into this next song, I'd like to talk to you all a bit about sex.” The cheers are deafening and he has to wait a full thirty seconds until he can speak again and be sure he's heard. “I just want you to know that as much as we joke about shagging someone in every city, we still all believe it should be special.” He knows the boys are giving him strange looks by now, but he feels like he needs to say this, even if he can't put his finger on why, exactly.
He points at the sign slowly lowering in the audience. The crowd has gone fairly quiet save for a few awws and he clears his through before continuing, “I'm not going to deflower you. I love you all too much to ever take that from you.” The screams are back, declarations of I love you, too! falling on his ears as he turns to wink at a grinning Louis.
That night in the hotel room, as Louis takes his time spreading him open, preparing to lick and twist until he's begging for release, Harry tilts his head down and beams at the man between his legs. “I love you,” he whispers, and the admission gives Louis pause. They hadn't said it to each other yet but both boys can feel it.
“I love you, too, Harry."
Later, both boys are laying in a mess of sheets and come and sweat when Harry turns his head and presses a kiss to Louis' temple.
Yes, he thinks, definitely better than the first time.
====================
What? Quit looking at me like that! Did you really think I'd go through fixing Harry's first time (with suspiciously forgiving time travel) and not help him find actual love? Do you hear yourself sometimes? I think you might be drunk. Lay off the wine coolers, yeah?
Anyways, this was a fucking blast to write, even if I had do all the HTML formatting (and editing, because I'm lazy) while posting because I don't have an LJ and I didn't know my excessive italics would be obliterated.
Excellent prompt. Thanks, OP.
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Anyways.
YOU CALLED MY PORN HOT!
Dying, brb.
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Selfcest is hard for me to write as a PWP because the characters can't run off into the sunset together. Closure is needed, and that's why I added the gradual memory changes with Louis at the end there.
It was all very self-indulgent, too, as I mentioned I like to sing booooooyfriends when I write Larry and that brings me great joy. Like, you can't even know.
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I kind of want to sob with relief that you guys like this. I read so much fic that for people to like mine, it's just marvelous.
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Gah, I wish I could get you to write little!Harry domming the fuck out of 18 y o Harry... Hehe. I didn't say anything.
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Haha, I'm sorry time travel is such a pain in the arse and doesn't let Harry date his past self. But, god, imagine that he could. Imagine if he joined the band. Harry harmonizing with himself, live? I need a minute.
And as for that thing that you definitely didn't say...
...that sounds hot. I... I might. Dude. I fucking might. I have such OCD, though, that I can't just insert it. He needs to be willing to give up control with little!Harry while still being jaded. That's a lot of dialogue, but I might be able to... oh. OH SHIT I HAVE AN IDEA. Oh fuck I have to write this down.
Okay, seriously, you're the best. I've kind of missed writing this 'verse since I posted the fic and now I get to go back into it and GAH FETUS!HARRY I'M COMING FOR YOU, DARLING.
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I'd really love to read more of your work!
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I'm actually purely anon. I don't have an LJ nor have I posted anything before now. But your comment kind of makes me want to?
Also, thank you for the vocabulary compliment. I get a little crazed trying not to use the same adjectives too closely together (Harry's eyes are so fucking fond when he looks at him that Zayn is overwhelmed by an overwhelming fondness for the boy) or have like a list of attributes that all mean the same thing (i.e. Harry was beautiful: gorgeous and fit and stunning and god, Louis could really just fucking die at how hot he was) so I'm glad you appreciate it.
And, lbr, all Larry is perfect. Perfect idiot boyfriends.
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I apoligize for not writing that in the reply title, live journal doesn't like me very much.
Anyway, I think it's possible that you've just written what is one of my, if not my ultimate, favorite fills. I'm not lying when I say tht you should get a livejournal or AO3 or something and just write because this was literally perfect and way more than I wanted. If I'm honest, you could write about an apple falling out of a tree and it'd be amazing. So thank you so much for filling this. And yes, your porn was hot.
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And as you can see I've succumbed to peer pressure and created an LJ account. I have a bunch of stuff I need to finish for school before I can really think about writing on a regular basis. I'm an accounting major, so... this has absolutely no value for my degree. It is fun, though.
Oh, and my apple!fic is shoddy at best, sorry to burst your bubble. It's riddled with purple prose. Just awf.
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