grace
in my quaint struggle what i want is a sense that i am in effective communication.
i have begun to articulate again. professor newman understood me today (he often has) and we discussed my frustration with vajryana; coming from a judeo-christian tradition i have trouble with the idea of not questioning this cognitive defect/deep hallucination/hypostasy that is intrinsic to samsaric existence. i understand that posing the question "why would there be a cognitive defect in beings?" implies a reliance on a creator, but i am still not satisfied with the thought that i simply shouldn't ask, even though i believe it to be so. grace is a concept which can be reconciled between my polar extremes but i am wary of the comfort that comes with it.
i am ready to work for this. i clearly cannot stage an all out abandonment of western religious philosophy without a clearer grasp of it, hence the kierkegaard, nor can i expect to get a handle on him without his predecessors, whose points of view i am startled with every day in "race..."
only a tiny percentage of human beings possesses the capacity and receptivity to undertake the dharma.
i will no longer pull the wool of contentedness over my own eyes.
the past 24 hours have been sprinkled with the type of productive, beautiful conversations that i cherish. there are some absolutely amazing characters with me on this path.
i have begun to articulate again. professor newman understood me today (he often has) and we discussed my frustration with vajryana; coming from a judeo-christian tradition i have trouble with the idea of not questioning this cognitive defect/deep hallucination/hypostasy that is intrinsic to samsaric existence. i understand that posing the question "why would there be a cognitive defect in beings?" implies a reliance on a creator, but i am still not satisfied with the thought that i simply shouldn't ask, even though i believe it to be so. grace is a concept which can be reconciled between my polar extremes but i am wary of the comfort that comes with it.
i am ready to work for this. i clearly cannot stage an all out abandonment of western religious philosophy without a clearer grasp of it, hence the kierkegaard, nor can i expect to get a handle on him without his predecessors, whose points of view i am startled with every day in "race..."
only a tiny percentage of human beings possesses the capacity and receptivity to undertake the dharma.
i will no longer pull the wool of contentedness over my own eyes.
the past 24 hours have been sprinkled with the type of productive, beautiful conversations that i cherish. there are some absolutely amazing characters with me on this path.