i keep throwing things away because i don't want to have anything but books and art supplies, ever

Oct 25, 2004 00:06

i think the best moments in life - what i live for - are those when a single other person and i are able to make each other feel completely equal in value. an ultimate sensation of "golden rule" comes when you are absolutely loving the other person as yourself and they are reciprocating, and there is no condescension or shyness or pretension - just completely honest eye contact or affect-less conversation. it's so ridiculously rare.
john irving creates characters in his fiction that have these connections.
l.m. montgomery called the phenomenon "kindred spirits."
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i find myself consistently sabotaging these moments, and it's as if the people i make strong connections with are only those who persevere and work hard enough to get my out of my mask, which is all the majority of people experience.
oh this is silly hollow introspection -
"are you there, god? it's me... margaret."
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even when i'm bad at expressing it in action,
my sister is one of my favorite kindred spirits.
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