Breathless desire - Chapter 5
Title: Breathless desire
Author: Aya
Pairing: Akame
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, romance
Summary: "He was shaking with the cold, and hated to stand there, on this fully exposed pavement, waiting for something, or rather, for someone who would secure for him that imaginary, with their money. Exactly, Kame sold his body, he gave pleasure to every client, every man who wanted him, who choose him. It was a dirty fight in these dirty streets, every dark night was a hard struggle for life."
Kame watched Jin's naked back as the other pulled his shirt over his smooth and rippling skin, the latter beginning to button it. He had been in Jin's house for three and half weeks now and every time, after their togetherness he watched the same scene: Jin pulling on his clothes on one by one, the door closing behind the other as he disappeared from his presence. Jin had never once looked back at him.
In the beginning Kame didn't care. He knew that Jin had a passion for his job and the boy knew perfectly well what his status was in the other's life. First, it was enough for him just to feel gentleness from Jin, but after a while, he found himself always wanted to tell the other after sex: 'Don't leave'. Though, being weak, he never said it aloud.
He heard the door close with a slight click again, and his first thought was, that he was beginning to hate those clothes and Jin's work. Kame had never been selfish in his life, but as he was lying there alone on the bed, he wanted Jin by his side, just for more few minutes longer; he wanted the other to forget his everyday life, without remembering that Kame was his pleasure doll.
Kame got used to the sad fact that in his life, nobody cared about him, but when it came to Jin, it scared him how he needed more from the man.
The days passed too fast, and Kame knew he was nearing that critical one month which meant Jin would be beginning the descent into unhappiness and Kame would presumably have to leave the house. Since he didn't know what the sign was when Jin get was starting to tire of him, like he had with his other toys, he wasn't sure what the other's plans were; when he wanted him to leave. Though the one month mark was fast approaching, Kame didn't feel any change in Jin's behavior. He was as fervent in bed with him as he had been from the beginning, if not more passionate; if that was even possible.
He remembered when the other gone after him, stopped him on the stairs, giving him a warm embrace but that was the first and only one. Kame knew that Jin forbade situations like that. After sex, he almost always left saying, 'I have to work' and Kame wanted to tell him to stay this time. Work could go to hell!
- - -
The next time Kame found himself on the bed, he felt in Jin's body, that he was stressed. He looked really tried, and Kame didn't understand why the other wanted to have sex with him. It was obvious that the man probably just wanted to crawl into bed and fall asleep. Kame wanted so much to give something to the man, something to help Jin relax; something the latter could use to forget about his damn work. Mustering all of his courage, Kame placed his hand on Jin's chest.
“Let me” he whispered.
Jin looked at him in surprise, seemly not understanding what Kame wanted from him. The latter sat up, pushing the man gently till the other was sitting; climbing in between his legs. The boy began to unbutton the other's shirt, pulling it off of him tenderly.
“Lie on your stomach” Kame told Jin, who looked even more surprise then before.
“Please” Kame whispered.
Jin didn't moved, his hesitant look telling Kame that he didn't know what he was planning or what he wanted from him.
“Please” Kame whispered again, and Jin, still bit unsure laid down on his stomach.
Kame sat straddling his waist. He placed his hand on Jin's back, stroking every inch of it first, and after a while his touches became stronger. He dug his fingers deeper into Jin's skin, massaging it. The man moaned slightly, and Kame tired to give him more pleasure; this time in a different way. He massaged Jin's shoulders, his neck, caressed his arms, and then drew a line down his spine.
Slowly, Kame felt, that the tension disappear from Jin's body and he began relaxing. The boy leaned over the other's back, still not finished and trailed soft kisses on Jin's heated skin. The man's low moans proof that he was enjoying Kame's every touch; his warm kisses, and the latter felt his body reacting to the man's voice.
Kame didn't know why he cared about the man under him so much. He knew it wasn't love, maybe just maybe it was very close. He hadn't fallen in love with Jin…it was just…what was it exactly? He had never been in love before. He had had a few boyfriends, and girlfriends but the relationships hadn't lasted long, just month or two. With his work, it was difficult to be by someone's side all the time. It would have been difficult if his feelings had grown into love with any of his clients back than.
Maybe the reason he felt calm and peaceful around Jin was because he didn't feel unwanted; his thought wandered as he realized that Jin didn't treat him like some cold object. Caressing the other's soft skin and enjoying being able to give something more to the other than just his body. He liked the feeling inside and around them when they were together. Maybe it was just his imagination, but everything seemed different when Jin was around.
As Kame kissed Jin's neck, the other turned around, and Kame looked in his eyes deeply.
“You're really good at this,” the man whispered “…too”
Jin turned around completely and grabbed the bottom side of Kame's t-shirt, pulling it off him roughly. He caressed the boy's neck and stomach; the latter closing his eyes, as Jin's touches warmed his body.
“I like how your body reacts to my touches” Jin whispered again.
Kame's body shivered at Jin's low voice.
“I like your moans during sex” came the husky voice again as he unbelted Kame's trousers and the boy could feel the other's hand slipping into his pants; brushing over his erection and Kame couldn't help himself as he moaned in pleasure.
“Yeah, like that…”
Jin pushed Kame to the sheets, climbing on top of him; hastily taking off every article of clothing that were still left on the boy, who felt two fingers now within him, and grabbed Jin's wrist as the other was leaning over him with his hand next to his shoulder. Kame guided Jin's hand and pressed his fingers into him, gritting his teeth in pain; he could feel Jin's burning gaze on him, and saw Jin licked his lips; his hungry eyes looking at his fragile body.
Kame grabbed the man's hand that was now preparing him and pulled his fingers out, dragging the man above him again, watching him with dark desire-filled eyes.
Jin smirked “Impatient, aren't we?”
“I want you in me” Kame whispered with a husky voice.
Jin hurriedly opened his belt, spread the boy's legs; kneeling between them, he slowly, carefully entered him. Their groans were one, feeling the heat of each other's bodies that began to grow intensively when Jin began to move; immediately setting a fast pace and thrusting deep, taking Kame's breathe away entirely.
Jin's lips were so close to his skin as he leaned down to Kame's shoulder. The other could feel them as they tickled his skin, jesus, closer; just a little bit closer. He wanted to feel Jin's body against his so much. Jin's hand stopped their current ministrations and snaked around Kame's neck, cradling his head gently, and embraced Kame powerfully, letting their bodies touch each other, flesh on flesh; hot skin on hot skin, god, this feeling was so remarkable.
They reached their climax, coming down slowly; trying to swallow as much air as they could, but not for a long time as Jin wanted to escape from Kame's presence again. He stood up, and picked up that Kame had come to hate and this time it wasn't any different.
“There's some work waiting for me” Jin replied.
“But it's eleven o'clock at the night!”
That had been the first thing that Kame had thought of when he had heard Jin's sentence, but he had never meant to say it out loud. Yet, without thinking, he did. When he saw that Jin raise an eyebrow, he quickly turned his head away and began watching the bed sheets.
“I-Im sorry” he whispered.
“You don't always have to apologize”
“You work too much” Kame continued, voicing his first though again but this time he didn't even want to hold himself back.
When he looked back at Jin, awkwardly, he saw in the man's mouth was curved into a tiny smile and seconds later he found the man next to him, laying on the bed again; Jin's hands on his cheeks, his thumb slowly caressing his now lightly shaded red skin.
“Why are you so sweet?” Jin whispered, as Kame blushed.
“S-Sweet?”
“Yeah”
“I am not”
“You are” Jin continued as he smiled, and Kame felt how incredibly fast his heart was beating in his chest.
- - -
It was late afternoon, and Kame saw the sun's last glimmer glowing through the window; the orange light on Jin's back, as the latter was lying next to him; the silence with the beautiful lights around gave off an idyllic atmosphere. Kame didn't dare to move, he didn't want to destroy this moment. He was afraid that if he moved even a little, Jin would stand up; leaving him like the many times that he had during the last few weeks.
He felt Jin's hot breath on his skin, making his body shiver as it was slowly beginning to cool down from their last round; his heart returning to its slow beating.
“Why did you choose this job?” Jin asked, his voice cutting into the intimate silence.
This time Kame was surprised and it took him a while to answer.
“I didn't have any other choice”
There was silence around them again. Kame usually hated talking about his past, and there were just a few occasions when he had mentioned it to his friends but in not great detail. He knew that his past hurt him more than he showed. Not to the others but to himself and now the man, who had changed his life during the last few weeks, was now asking about it. The man who usually didn't speak to him; instead gave his body so much pleasure but before he could say anything, he heard the other's voice.
“You hate me, don't you?” Jin's whispered
Kame eyes wide opened. What the hell was Jin talking about?
“You hate what I'm doing with you, don't you?”
The sun's light was a dark orange now and it painted the room's wall, as the pair was lying next to each other, their arms touching. Kame's mind mulled over the thought that maybe Jin's power was eating away at the man, without his realization; it wasn't that Jin selfishly gained over its, thought, might be true, he had set up rules, that the boy had to observe but Jin didn't see how much delight, how much happiness he had given to him since Kame had come to live in Jin's house? Although Jin didn't know anything about Kame's past, about his feelings.
“I don't hate you” Kame whispered.
Jin sighed, not reacting.
“I like your…gentleness”
Jin turned his head towards Kame and the latter felt his eyes on him. Jin touched the boy's neck and slowly, with fondness began stroking it, lightly playing his fingers over the sensitive skin; almost as lightly as the sun's remaining rays of light as they peeked through the shades and fell on the pair in a gentle illuminesence. .
“Yeah, like that…” Kame replied softly as he saw, out of the corner of his eye, Jin's small smile; the man was amused to hear his own words coming from the boy.
Somehow, as quickly as the moment had come, it was gone and everything changed, as the man realized what he was doing, and Kame heard the usual sentence.
“I have to work.”
He looked on as Jin moved to the edge of the bed, looking for his cloths; leaning down for his shirt, the article of clothing covering his soft skin seconds later. Kame watched him almost imploringly, though Jin was busy with his damn clothing but when their eyes met at last, Jin looked Kame's body up and down, stopping his movement; Kame hardly swallowed when he saw Jin quickly unbuttoned his shirt, throwing it to the floor again.
“Fuck work” Jin commented as he climbed on top of Kame again and the boy could see the sunlight splayed across Jin's hair, while he was watching him; touching him again with a gentle touch. In the dark orange happiness, aspirations and obsessions were expressed and shared; the sun slowly going down between the trees.
***
Thank you for the beta-ing: envyschaos2084
I hope you liked this chapter. I don't know when will I finish the next chapter, its will be longer, I think, and the beginning of something :)... But, I'm trying to update ASAP.
Comments are this time 'dark orange happiness' (<< Aya wants that too o.o )
Author: Aya
Pairing: Akame
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, romance
Summary: "He was shaking with the cold, and hated to stand there, on this fully exposed pavement, waiting for something, or rather, for someone who would secure for him that imaginary, with their money. Exactly, Kame sold his body, he gave pleasure to every client, every man who wanted him, who choose him. It was a dirty fight in these dirty streets, every dark night was a hard struggle for life."
Kame watched Jin's naked back as the other pulled his shirt over his smooth and rippling skin, the latter beginning to button it. He had been in Jin's house for three and half weeks now and every time, after their togetherness he watched the same scene: Jin pulling on his clothes on one by one, the door closing behind the other as he disappeared from his presence. Jin had never once looked back at him.
In the beginning Kame didn't care. He knew that Jin had a passion for his job and the boy knew perfectly well what his status was in the other's life. First, it was enough for him just to feel gentleness from Jin, but after a while, he found himself always wanted to tell the other after sex: 'Don't leave'. Though, being weak, he never said it aloud.
He heard the door close with a slight click again, and his first thought was, that he was beginning to hate those clothes and Jin's work. Kame had never been selfish in his life, but as he was lying there alone on the bed, he wanted Jin by his side, just for more few minutes longer; he wanted the other to forget his everyday life, without remembering that Kame was his pleasure doll.
Kame got used to the sad fact that in his life, nobody cared about him, but when it came to Jin, it scared him how he needed more from the man.
The days passed too fast, and Kame knew he was nearing that critical one month which meant Jin would be beginning the descent into unhappiness and Kame would presumably have to leave the house. Since he didn't know what the sign was when Jin get was starting to tire of him, like he had with his other toys, he wasn't sure what the other's plans were; when he wanted him to leave. Though the one month mark was fast approaching, Kame didn't feel any change in Jin's behavior. He was as fervent in bed with him as he had been from the beginning, if not more passionate; if that was even possible.
He remembered when the other gone after him, stopped him on the stairs, giving him a warm embrace but that was the first and only one. Kame knew that Jin forbade situations like that. After sex, he almost always left saying, 'I have to work' and Kame wanted to tell him to stay this time. Work could go to hell!
- - -
The next time Kame found himself on the bed, he felt in Jin's body, that he was stressed. He looked really tried, and Kame didn't understand why the other wanted to have sex with him. It was obvious that the man probably just wanted to crawl into bed and fall asleep. Kame wanted so much to give something to the man, something to help Jin relax; something the latter could use to forget about his damn work. Mustering all of his courage, Kame placed his hand on Jin's chest.
“Let me” he whispered.
Jin looked at him in surprise, seemly not understanding what Kame wanted from him. The latter sat up, pushing the man gently till the other was sitting; climbing in between his legs. The boy began to unbutton the other's shirt, pulling it off of him tenderly.
“Lie on your stomach” Kame told Jin, who looked even more surprise then before.
“Please” Kame whispered.
Jin didn't moved, his hesitant look telling Kame that he didn't know what he was planning or what he wanted from him.
“Please” Kame whispered again, and Jin, still bit unsure laid down on his stomach.
Kame sat straddling his waist. He placed his hand on Jin's back, stroking every inch of it first, and after a while his touches became stronger. He dug his fingers deeper into Jin's skin, massaging it. The man moaned slightly, and Kame tired to give him more pleasure; this time in a different way. He massaged Jin's shoulders, his neck, caressed his arms, and then drew a line down his spine.
Slowly, Kame felt, that the tension disappear from Jin's body and he began relaxing. The boy leaned over the other's back, still not finished and trailed soft kisses on Jin's heated skin. The man's low moans proof that he was enjoying Kame's every touch; his warm kisses, and the latter felt his body reacting to the man's voice.
Kame didn't know why he cared about the man under him so much. He knew it wasn't love, maybe just maybe it was very close. He hadn't fallen in love with Jin…it was just…what was it exactly? He had never been in love before. He had had a few boyfriends, and girlfriends but the relationships hadn't lasted long, just month or two. With his work, it was difficult to be by someone's side all the time. It would have been difficult if his feelings had grown into love with any of his clients back than.
Maybe the reason he felt calm and peaceful around Jin was because he didn't feel unwanted; his thought wandered as he realized that Jin didn't treat him like some cold object. Caressing the other's soft skin and enjoying being able to give something more to the other than just his body. He liked the feeling inside and around them when they were together. Maybe it was just his imagination, but everything seemed different when Jin was around.
As Kame kissed Jin's neck, the other turned around, and Kame looked in his eyes deeply.
“You're really good at this,” the man whispered “…too”
Jin turned around completely and grabbed the bottom side of Kame's t-shirt, pulling it off him roughly. He caressed the boy's neck and stomach; the latter closing his eyes, as Jin's touches warmed his body.
“I like how your body reacts to my touches” Jin whispered again.
Kame's body shivered at Jin's low voice.
“I like your moans during sex” came the husky voice again as he unbelted Kame's trousers and the boy could feel the other's hand slipping into his pants; brushing over his erection and Kame couldn't help himself as he moaned in pleasure.
“Yeah, like that…”
Jin pushed Kame to the sheets, climbing on top of him; hastily taking off every article of clothing that were still left on the boy, who felt two fingers now within him, and grabbed Jin's wrist as the other was leaning over him with his hand next to his shoulder. Kame guided Jin's hand and pressed his fingers into him, gritting his teeth in pain; he could feel Jin's burning gaze on him, and saw Jin licked his lips; his hungry eyes looking at his fragile body.
Kame grabbed the man's hand that was now preparing him and pulled his fingers out, dragging the man above him again, watching him with dark desire-filled eyes.
Jin smirked “Impatient, aren't we?”
“I want you in me” Kame whispered with a husky voice.
Jin hurriedly opened his belt, spread the boy's legs; kneeling between them, he slowly, carefully entered him. Their groans were one, feeling the heat of each other's bodies that began to grow intensively when Jin began to move; immediately setting a fast pace and thrusting deep, taking Kame's breathe away entirely.
Jin's lips were so close to his skin as he leaned down to Kame's shoulder. The other could feel them as they tickled his skin, jesus, closer; just a little bit closer. He wanted to feel Jin's body against his so much. Jin's hand stopped their current ministrations and snaked around Kame's neck, cradling his head gently, and embraced Kame powerfully, letting their bodies touch each other, flesh on flesh; hot skin on hot skin, god, this feeling was so remarkable.
They reached their climax, coming down slowly; trying to swallow as much air as they could, but not for a long time as Jin wanted to escape from Kame's presence again. He stood up, and picked up that Kame had come to hate and this time it wasn't any different.
“There's some work waiting for me” Jin replied.
“But it's eleven o'clock at the night!”
That had been the first thing that Kame had thought of when he had heard Jin's sentence, but he had never meant to say it out loud. Yet, without thinking, he did. When he saw that Jin raise an eyebrow, he quickly turned his head away and began watching the bed sheets.
“I-Im sorry” he whispered.
“You don't always have to apologize”
“You work too much” Kame continued, voicing his first though again but this time he didn't even want to hold himself back.
When he looked back at Jin, awkwardly, he saw in the man's mouth was curved into a tiny smile and seconds later he found the man next to him, laying on the bed again; Jin's hands on his cheeks, his thumb slowly caressing his now lightly shaded red skin.
“Why are you so sweet?” Jin whispered, as Kame blushed.
“S-Sweet?”
“Yeah”
“I am not”
“You are” Jin continued as he smiled, and Kame felt how incredibly fast his heart was beating in his chest.
- - -
It was late afternoon, and Kame saw the sun's last glimmer glowing through the window; the orange light on Jin's back, as the latter was lying next to him; the silence with the beautiful lights around gave off an idyllic atmosphere. Kame didn't dare to move, he didn't want to destroy this moment. He was afraid that if he moved even a little, Jin would stand up; leaving him like the many times that he had during the last few weeks.
He felt Jin's hot breath on his skin, making his body shiver as it was slowly beginning to cool down from their last round; his heart returning to its slow beating.
“Why did you choose this job?” Jin asked, his voice cutting into the intimate silence.
This time Kame was surprised and it took him a while to answer.
“I didn't have any other choice”
There was silence around them again. Kame usually hated talking about his past, and there were just a few occasions when he had mentioned it to his friends but in not great detail. He knew that his past hurt him more than he showed. Not to the others but to himself and now the man, who had changed his life during the last few weeks, was now asking about it. The man who usually didn't speak to him; instead gave his body so much pleasure but before he could say anything, he heard the other's voice.
“You hate me, don't you?” Jin's whispered
Kame eyes wide opened. What the hell was Jin talking about?
“You hate what I'm doing with you, don't you?”
The sun's light was a dark orange now and it painted the room's wall, as the pair was lying next to each other, their arms touching. Kame's mind mulled over the thought that maybe Jin's power was eating away at the man, without his realization; it wasn't that Jin selfishly gained over its, thought, might be true, he had set up rules, that the boy had to observe but Jin didn't see how much delight, how much happiness he had given to him since Kame had come to live in Jin's house? Although Jin didn't know anything about Kame's past, about his feelings.
“I don't hate you” Kame whispered.
Jin sighed, not reacting.
“I like your…gentleness”
Jin turned his head towards Kame and the latter felt his eyes on him. Jin touched the boy's neck and slowly, with fondness began stroking it, lightly playing his fingers over the sensitive skin; almost as lightly as the sun's remaining rays of light as they peeked through the shades and fell on the pair in a gentle illuminesence. .
“Yeah, like that…” Kame replied softly as he saw, out of the corner of his eye, Jin's small smile; the man was amused to hear his own words coming from the boy.
Somehow, as quickly as the moment had come, it was gone and everything changed, as the man realized what he was doing, and Kame heard the usual sentence.
“I have to work.”
He looked on as Jin moved to the edge of the bed, looking for his cloths; leaning down for his shirt, the article of clothing covering his soft skin seconds later. Kame watched him almost imploringly, though Jin was busy with his damn clothing but when their eyes met at last, Jin looked Kame's body up and down, stopping his movement; Kame hardly swallowed when he saw Jin quickly unbuttoned his shirt, throwing it to the floor again.
“Fuck work” Jin commented as he climbed on top of Kame again and the boy could see the sunlight splayed across Jin's hair, while he was watching him; touching him again with a gentle touch. In the dark orange happiness, aspirations and obsessions were expressed and shared; the sun slowly going down between the trees.
***
Thank you for the beta-ing: envyschaos2084
I hope you liked this chapter. I don't know when will I finish the next chapter, its will be longer, I think, and the beginning of something :)... But, I'm trying to update ASAP.
Comments are this time 'dark orange happiness' (<< Aya wants that too o.o )