(no subject)

[1ashl8eigh7]

I miss my boys.
I miss spending every possible moment with them.
I hate the fact that we're torn.
I hate not being able to see their smiles everyday.
and hug them and never want to be without them.
I hate crying because I'm losing people left and right.
I miss doing stupid shit for kicks.
I miss not going to school so we could go get high.
or drink and go back to school.
I miss planning our lives out together
and getting his dad's rental house
and living together
and not letting anyone come between us.
I miss being the 4 everyone wanted to be like
and wanted to hang out with.
I miss thinking that no one and nothing could keep us from each other.
I miss the only things that kept me sane after he left.
I miss your warm smile.
I miss how your eyes squint when you smile.
I miss how you look like the joker when you smile.
it fucking kills me when I drive by the places we spent so much time at
and know that we've all gone our separate ways.
or have we?
it's weird how we act like nothing has changed when we're together.
I guess at times I underestimate the relationships we have.