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this isn't fair. my parents get into an accident, and my life has to stop...yet again. I just got over feeling like this. they're hurt, and I can't do anything about it. I don't want to face reality, yet I have to. 2 weeks before prom and I can't do shit with my mom. I have to do everything on my own. I feel as if I am being punished for something that I did not do or cause. I just want to run from it. get away. I feel as if this is my fault again, yet I wasn't even in the car. I don't like seeing my parents like this. I don't like feeling helpless. I wish this wouldn't have happened. I can't do shit because of someone else's stupidity. why am I the one being punished? why do I feel like my parents aren't there again? they say they are...but they can't be. they need to take care of themselves first before helping me with anything. my brother can go out and do all this shit, but I am stuck at home. why? because I'm the "responsible one". I just want to go out and forget all this. I want this to all be a bad dream. but it's not. it's something I don't want to face. I want to run. far away. I just wish someone understood how I'm feeling right now. I feel as if I have no one.