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yup yup..me and jason broke up...hmm surprising what a few words can do to a person...only a few people should know that this means...well actually just jason should heh...
anyway...umm earlier that day i made some new friends... Issac/Isaac W/E lol,umm this kid name jason,nathan,and nazaret. Isaac/Issac is 15,Jason is 19, Nathan is 15 too i think, and Nazaret is 15..one of their friends is brian but i already knew him so that doesnt really count lol..theyre really fun to hang out with..theyre nice,funny,cool..just a whole lotta things..i got to talk to nazaret a lot...or Naz as they like to call him..they all have their lil nicknames..like they call nathan izrael,nazaret is naz...i dont really know brians or jason lol..or issac but i know they have..i just cant remember rite now oh well..
because of what happened with jason ive been really sad about it...i really loved him but uhh...guess that doesnt matter now...i always tell him to do whatever he wants...so i guess i should too...so even tho hanging out with those guys is fun im still very depressed and ill like just keep away from them and be all anti social for a bit and ignore everyone but then i got to talking with naz again cuz he kept trying to talk to him so i figured what the hell...give it a try...hes a really nice guy...he gave me his number so we talked on the phone yesterday until a lil before 1...and all of us climbed over the gate into the school yard to hang out cuz it was less crowded than the park and cuz bidania couldve stayed out longer than..just like an hr and a bit tho but still...and i was just talking to naz instead of everyone else..cuz he wanted to talk and go somewhere more private which was like what...15 ft away from everyone or something lol but still..so we were just talking for like an hr and half by ourselves in the dark because of that stupid tree lol but still...it was very interesting and cool...i told him i hated guys now because of jason and what happened and he was like damn jason hehe...and i almost smacked him cuz he was walking me home and outta nowhere he just slapped my ass and im like ure so lucky i wouldnt smack u with my keys now so i just hit his chest and he fell off his skateboard a bit...i dunno...they all keep telling me to kiss him and i just say no stop telling me that..and then naz got the guts to ask me to make out with him but i just said no sorry...i dont know u like that...
i dunno..i still have feelings for jason i guess and even tho we're not together..i still dont wanna do anything with another guy but i should be moving on i guess..i dont think we're gonna get back together..we're just *sigh*.."friends" now...DAMMIT...I WILL WRITE ABOUT THIS ON THE FUCK U LIST THINGY....LET OUT ALL MY FEELINGS..SO IF URE INTERESTED ABOUT WHAT IM GONNA SAY FUCK U TO..CHECK IT OUT THEN...
well im probaly gonna hang out with the guys and bidania tomorrow...most likely..those r my new summer friends..like that i dont stay cooped up in the house all summer like stupid pigeons...but i dunno..i havent been feeling too good lately..ive gotten this stupid high fever and feeling sick and nauseous and i havent eaten a lot...like i only ate once yesterday..i just wasnt hungry...i couldnt even go to sleep cuz of my stupid fever and cuz of how sick i was feeling...*sigh* people tell me being single is not that bad and i dont need a b/f but its not because of that that im like this people!.its not that i dont wanna be single and i no i dont need a b/f...its that im not with jason..so get it thru ya fuckin headz!!!...
well now im talking to jason...this fucking sux..."so close,yet so far"..now im gonna write in the fuckulist community thing...so off i go...*dun dun dun duu,aww fuck it? who cares?!*...thats all i have to say for now...
well...no tricycle...no red rum..fuck it all...
ohh to fuckulist i go!bloop bloop
anyway...umm earlier that day i made some new friends... Issac/Isaac W/E lol,umm this kid name jason,nathan,and nazaret. Isaac/Issac is 15,Jason is 19, Nathan is 15 too i think, and Nazaret is 15..one of their friends is brian but i already knew him so that doesnt really count lol..theyre really fun to hang out with..theyre nice,funny,cool..just a whole lotta things..i got to talk to nazaret a lot...or Naz as they like to call him..they all have their lil nicknames..like they call nathan izrael,nazaret is naz...i dont really know brians or jason lol..or issac but i know they have..i just cant remember rite now oh well..
because of what happened with jason ive been really sad about it...i really loved him but uhh...guess that doesnt matter now...i always tell him to do whatever he wants...so i guess i should too...so even tho hanging out with those guys is fun im still very depressed and ill like just keep away from them and be all anti social for a bit and ignore everyone but then i got to talking with naz again cuz he kept trying to talk to him so i figured what the hell...give it a try...hes a really nice guy...he gave me his number so we talked on the phone yesterday until a lil before 1...and all of us climbed over the gate into the school yard to hang out cuz it was less crowded than the park and cuz bidania couldve stayed out longer than..just like an hr and a bit tho but still...and i was just talking to naz instead of everyone else..cuz he wanted to talk and go somewhere more private which was like what...15 ft away from everyone or something lol but still..so we were just talking for like an hr and half by ourselves in the dark because of that stupid tree lol but still...it was very interesting and cool...i told him i hated guys now because of jason and what happened and he was like damn jason hehe...and i almost smacked him cuz he was walking me home and outta nowhere he just slapped my ass and im like ure so lucky i wouldnt smack u with my keys now so i just hit his chest and he fell off his skateboard a bit...i dunno...they all keep telling me to kiss him and i just say no stop telling me that..and then naz got the guts to ask me to make out with him but i just said no sorry...i dont know u like that...
i dunno..i still have feelings for jason i guess and even tho we're not together..i still dont wanna do anything with another guy but i should be moving on i guess..i dont think we're gonna get back together..we're just *sigh*.."friends" now...DAMMIT...I WILL WRITE ABOUT THIS ON THE FUCK U LIST THINGY....LET OUT ALL MY FEELINGS..SO IF URE INTERESTED ABOUT WHAT IM GONNA SAY FUCK U TO..CHECK IT OUT THEN...
well im probaly gonna hang out with the guys and bidania tomorrow...most likely..those r my new summer friends..like that i dont stay cooped up in the house all summer like stupid pigeons...but i dunno..i havent been feeling too good lately..ive gotten this stupid high fever and feeling sick and nauseous and i havent eaten a lot...like i only ate once yesterday..i just wasnt hungry...i couldnt even go to sleep cuz of my stupid fever and cuz of how sick i was feeling...*sigh* people tell me being single is not that bad and i dont need a b/f but its not because of that that im like this people!.its not that i dont wanna be single and i no i dont need a b/f...its that im not with jason..so get it thru ya fuckin headz!!!...
well now im talking to jason...this fucking sux..."so close,yet so far"..now im gonna write in the fuckulist community thing...so off i go...*dun dun dun duu,aww fuck it? who cares?!*...thats all i have to say for now...
well...no tricycle...no red rum..fuck it all...
ohh to fuckulist i go!bloop bloop