Sometimes you Lose Focus
I went home this week feeling confused and overwhelmed, questioning and lost in my relationship.
I came home, had a wonderful two days with E- worked through all we talked about, and I've realized really what it is like to be loved, to accept being loved, and most of all, what it's like to dedicate your life to someone. I got aggitated not fifteen minutes ago after having a long discussion about my parents and my childhood ( I may go into this later) and left the bedroom, thinking I wouldn't sleep all night. Then I remembered.
It's for him. Not in any sort of codependant way but in the sense that you don't need to be angry about your childhood anymore. You're not under their thumb anymore. You're safe, you're loved, you're free, of worry and care. Those things don't matter, they lead you to this point and that's all they are. You aren't going to repeat them because you're stronger than that. You're better than that. So relax, live. Love.
I came home, had a wonderful two days with E- worked through all we talked about, and I've realized really what it is like to be loved, to accept being loved, and most of all, what it's like to dedicate your life to someone. I got aggitated not fifteen minutes ago after having a long discussion about my parents and my childhood ( I may go into this later) and left the bedroom, thinking I wouldn't sleep all night. Then I remembered.
It's for him. Not in any sort of codependant way but in the sense that you don't need to be angry about your childhood anymore. You're not under their thumb anymore. You're safe, you're loved, you're free, of worry and care. Those things don't matter, they lead you to this point and that's all they are. You aren't going to repeat them because you're stronger than that. You're better than that. So relax, live. Love.