Internet purge status
So, I have had facebook deactivated for almost a month now. It somehow came back at one point, but I suspect that is because some kind of app I use is still connected to facebook and activated it back that way. I tried to unlink certain accounts that I use a lot, and hopefully that fixes the problem. I haven't missed it. It's just a bunch of fake friendships, and misinformation articles designed to get you riled up in one way or another. I live in a world where information is at our fingertips, but I can't trust any of it.
I still haven't been very stable. I do need help, and I suspect I need heavy medications just to be ok. I can't take on other people's problems right now, which makes me feel selfish and terrible, but I can barely handle my own shit, and when I take on other people's problems too, I just lose it. I don't like feeling this way, because it does feel selfish. I guess it's one of the many things that make up how messed up I am.
I have a job interview on Wednesday for a place in Bloomington. I realize it's not particularly close to here, but I have a plan that I hope can work out - I'd only work there on weekends, stay with my parents, and help them take care of my grandfather (who is finally home from a rehabilitation center - good news). I would try to see about quitting Woodhouse, and working for Wellness Origin during the week, with a couple days off.
On the plus side, since quitting facebook, I've actually been spending more time with people I have wanted to hang out with for a while, but just never set aside the time to go do it. I wish my body wasn't in constant panic mode all the time, but at least I'm trying to get out there.
I still haven't been very stable. I do need help, and I suspect I need heavy medications just to be ok. I can't take on other people's problems right now, which makes me feel selfish and terrible, but I can barely handle my own shit, and when I take on other people's problems too, I just lose it. I don't like feeling this way, because it does feel selfish. I guess it's one of the many things that make up how messed up I am.
I have a job interview on Wednesday for a place in Bloomington. I realize it's not particularly close to here, but I have a plan that I hope can work out - I'd only work there on weekends, stay with my parents, and help them take care of my grandfather (who is finally home from a rehabilitation center - good news). I would try to see about quitting Woodhouse, and working for Wellness Origin during the week, with a couple days off.
On the plus side, since quitting facebook, I've actually been spending more time with people I have wanted to hang out with for a while, but just never set aside the time to go do it. I wish my body wasn't in constant panic mode all the time, but at least I'm trying to get out there.