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everything in my house is fucking broken and everyone is too busy going different ways to ever do anything about it. its a mess. i heard things before and they turned out to be true. too much sacrifice for my sake is going on and it makes me uncomfortable because i know how unreliable i am. alyson left again because she couldnt stand it. i think theres something about those 4 walls that haunts her. it feeds off of anything positive shes accomplished since. so im here alone now with no distraction from how fucking ridiculous any of this is. i should be used to it by now. but i havent changed in the most important ways.