god sometimes i dont know why i bother
shes still fucking getting ready so that means i have to remain in my house for a longer time. fuck yeah rock on totally FUCKING NOT!!! i was like she should be here by now then i call her house ans she answers the fucking phone...maybe i would be better off with kyle...and i cancelled plans just to be with her then she has to make herself "hot". and who the fuck does she need to make herself hot for? makes ya wonder eh? IT MAKES ME FUCKING WONDER!!! and its not that i dont like tanya and emily but they are along the lines of her friends more than mine and we are always with her friends...the only friend of mine that we hang out with liek true friend before i knew her kinda friend is rj and thats on a rare occasion. its like its always about her and i know i seem somewhat selfish right now but its liek every time and time and time. GOD IM GETTING SO FUCKING SICK OF HER!!! was is a mistake asking her back out? im really starting to question it. at least kyle acts like he cares. and we're supposed to be going to a party tonight which if i may add there will be NO FUCKING PERSON I KNOW THERE other than amber emily and tanya and they are all going to go and talk to their friends and seriously its fucking annoying. i know how that shit happens. i shouldve gone down to detroit with my brother and got really really fucked up instead of going to a party where for all i know there is going to be parents i mean come fucking on how fucking gay can a mother fucker be. this is so POINTLESS!!! yes amber, POINTLESS, maybe we are becoming pointless...well thats all the bitching i can do for fucking now...happy fucking new year you cunt mother fuckers...