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I found this entry from July 2004..I was such a depressed little child sometimes I fell like this but it doent really bother me..
thats all i gotta do i guess....beleive that God's here with me....and i no he is..all the insecurities i thought so little of, not letting ne one else no, all of which i thought i had forgotten, flood back to my mind to shut me down inside, and and kill my soul. i wish i could be locked away in a castle so no one else could see my face...but alas, thats not an option...i will have deal with my own feelings and cry myself to sleep, to save my self from crying later. well im gonna go and eat...maybe it will make me feel better....should i eat ice cream or chocolate cake??? how bout both?! (2 drina -i mean brocoli or carrots?)
thats all i gotta do i guess....beleive that God's here with me....and i no he is..all the insecurities i thought so little of, not letting ne one else no, all of which i thought i had forgotten, flood back to my mind to shut me down inside, and and kill my soul. i wish i could be locked away in a castle so no one else could see my face...but alas, thats not an option...i will have deal with my own feelings and cry myself to sleep, to save my self from crying later. well im gonna go and eat...maybe it will make me feel better....should i eat ice cream or chocolate cake??? how bout both?! (2 drina -i mean brocoli or carrots?)