All of the things.
So, this is what's happening.
Jon's father died last weekend. It was totally sudden and completely devastating; he didn't show up for work on Monday, and Jon got the call that night. We got into Green Bay around 2am. The service was Thursday night. I had to come back for work today, but Jon is still with his mom and I will be going back to get him next weekend. It's especially hard because Jon is the sole heir/executor, so he has to deal with all the legal and logistical issues.
It's so strange to be home without him. As lame as it might seem, this week will be the longest we've ever been apart (not counting The Breakup That Wasn't--we started sleeping together again after two weeks, and were a couple once more within the month). The house seems so empty, and it's hard to sleep without him. The reason for the seperation makes it worse, of course, than it would be otherwise.
So yeah. Jon graduates in 3 weeks and it's really fucking awful and upsetting that his dad won't be able to be there. His dad was the greatest cheerleader and was constantly (and vocally!) proud of his baby boy. His uncle will be there, though, and a small urn of ashes will accompany us home next weekend.
In a messed up way I have been feeling more mentally stable since all this horrible stuff happened. I think I have been thriving on having someone to care for. I don't know if that is awful and sick or if it is ultimately positive. I think (and hope) maybe the latter. I like being able to be someone's rock instead of the flowing tide.
Other than that, I don't know. I started work at "my" coffeeshop today. It's shiny and clean and everything is brand new. I've come full circle as a drink slave; I'm back in a licensed Starbucks. But, you know, this time I have autonomy and am being paid a buttload more. So that's, you know...surreal and neat.
I'm trying to get a lot done this week while I have the house to myself. So far I have folded laundry and watched some 'L Word'...hopefully I can manage to be more productive than that tomorrow. Though I think there is a black belt class I will be going to in the evening.
I think that is all.
I got a new teaset, for free. I did a little swap with Tabby; she got my huge old cast iron set (which I had also gotten for free!) that I never used, and she bought me a brand new, smaller set.
Now that is all.
Jon's father died last weekend. It was totally sudden and completely devastating; he didn't show up for work on Monday, and Jon got the call that night. We got into Green Bay around 2am. The service was Thursday night. I had to come back for work today, but Jon is still with his mom and I will be going back to get him next weekend. It's especially hard because Jon is the sole heir/executor, so he has to deal with all the legal and logistical issues.
It's so strange to be home without him. As lame as it might seem, this week will be the longest we've ever been apart (not counting The Breakup That Wasn't--we started sleeping together again after two weeks, and were a couple once more within the month). The house seems so empty, and it's hard to sleep without him. The reason for the seperation makes it worse, of course, than it would be otherwise.
So yeah. Jon graduates in 3 weeks and it's really fucking awful and upsetting that his dad won't be able to be there. His dad was the greatest cheerleader and was constantly (and vocally!) proud of his baby boy. His uncle will be there, though, and a small urn of ashes will accompany us home next weekend.
In a messed up way I have been feeling more mentally stable since all this horrible stuff happened. I think I have been thriving on having someone to care for. I don't know if that is awful and sick or if it is ultimately positive. I think (and hope) maybe the latter. I like being able to be someone's rock instead of the flowing tide.
Other than that, I don't know. I started work at "my" coffeeshop today. It's shiny and clean and everything is brand new. I've come full circle as a drink slave; I'm back in a licensed Starbucks. But, you know, this time I have autonomy and am being paid a buttload more. So that's, you know...surreal and neat.
I'm trying to get a lot done this week while I have the house to myself. So far I have folded laundry and watched some 'L Word'...hopefully I can manage to be more productive than that tomorrow. Though I think there is a black belt class I will be going to in the evening.
I think that is all.
I got a new teaset, for free. I did a little swap with Tabby; she got my huge old cast iron set (which I had also gotten for free!) that I never used, and she bought me a brand new, smaller set.
Now that is all.