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Sometimes i just dont get life. I guess that is what God wants huh for us to depend on him. Make us realize that life is a bitch?
I just dont get how people can complain about their life when they are the ones who FUCKED it up.
I guess i have no room to talk tho. I am not complaining, I mean my life is simple easy and i love love it.
BUT (yes the big but), i get so tried of everyday being the same old thing. Me being me, if you will. I want something to call my own. I want to surprise people i want to be amazing insead of just ok. i want for everything to pay off. And somehow it is always cut short. i feel like i am always striving for what i want and then i change my mind and i am back where i started . I battle so much with who i am and who i actully want to be. Do i want to be the good Kathleen? that everything should pay off in the end(which thus far it hasnt) or do i just say screw it all and live up to the expecions everyone has for me, which is to mess it all up (My mom and dad my SISTER my friends, family) I just dont know what i want to do and i dont want to do anything until i am sure. Which leads me back to being the same old boring me. Ok enough... I am sorry sometimes i just feel like i never really let lose, to ANYONE and i need to more often i need to get everything off my chest... i guess thats what i need? any ways goodnight everyone!!! ~Kathleen
I just dont get how people can complain about their life when they are the ones who FUCKED it up.
I guess i have no room to talk tho. I am not complaining, I mean my life is simple easy and i love love it.
BUT (yes the big but), i get so tried of everyday being the same old thing. Me being me, if you will. I want something to call my own. I want to surprise people i want to be amazing insead of just ok. i want for everything to pay off. And somehow it is always cut short. i feel like i am always striving for what i want and then i change my mind and i am back where i started . I battle so much with who i am and who i actully want to be. Do i want to be the good Kathleen? that everything should pay off in the end(which thus far it hasnt) or do i just say screw it all and live up to the expecions everyone has for me, which is to mess it all up (My mom and dad my SISTER my friends, family) I just dont know what i want to do and i dont want to do anything until i am sure. Which leads me back to being the same old boring me. Ok enough... I am sorry sometimes i just feel like i never really let lose, to ANYONE and i need to more often i need to get everything off my chest... i guess thats what i need? any ways goodnight everyone!!! ~Kathleen