promises is such an awesome song. i love that whole cd.
but as life goes...it'll always suck. i used to really hate myself and my life because i was me. whether it be my extremely bad luck with the girls or my lack of brad pittish physical features (which the majority of so cal girls are looking for) i hated myself. but, and it took a while for me to realize this, when you look at life you have to take both the good and the bad at the same time. take, for example, this summer. i was involved in two accidents within two months. and both were my fault. i decided to not go through insurance but to pay it out of my own pocket. the total damage to my car and to theirs, for both accidents combined, exceeded $5000. the first accident happened as summer started, which meant that i had to get a job that was going to work me 40 or more hours a week so i could try to pay it off. so all summer i was working and taking a bio class at the school. i had no life. i would see my friends like once every two or three weeks. and as of right now, it looks as if i will still be paying off the accident well into next year. and i was so depressed about those accidents. but i realized that those accidents probly saved my life, because up until the beginning of summer, i was an incredibly reckless driver.
so i dunno if that helps at all or if any of it makes sense because it's late and i'm tired, but yeah. if you wanna use cliches, i guess you could "take the good with the bad" or "when one door closes, another opens" or whatever.
thanks =) well im glad to hear youre okay. And i hope for your sake that you pay them off soon. but im too sure what doors are opening for me. cos i could fix it real easily but then id have another problem. *sigh* sometimes i dont know what to do. what im going through, no living thing should ever have go through, yet so many of us do. im so angry at everything anymore. and yeaaah i might be young, but that doesnt automatically make me nieve. Or does it?
i dont know about anything anymore. im completely numb. Its crazy
but as life goes...it'll always suck. i used to really hate myself and my life because i was me. whether it be my extremely bad luck with the girls or my lack of brad pittish physical features (which the majority of so cal girls are looking for) i hated myself. but, and it took a while for me to realize this, when you look at life you have to take both the good and the bad at the same time. take, for example, this summer. i was involved in two accidents within two months. and both were my fault. i decided to not go through insurance but to pay it out of my own pocket. the total damage to my car and to theirs, for both accidents combined, exceeded $5000. the first accident happened as summer started, which meant that i had to get a job that was going to work me 40 or more hours a week so i could try to pay it off. so all summer i was working and taking a bio class at the school. i had no life. i would see my friends like once every two or three weeks. and as of right now, it looks as if i will still be paying off the accident well into next year. and i was so depressed about those accidents. but i realized that those accidents probly saved my life, because up until the beginning of summer, i was an incredibly reckless driver.
so i dunno if that helps at all or if any of it makes sense because it's late and i'm tired, but yeah. if you wanna use cliches, i guess you could "take the good with the bad" or "when one door closes, another opens" or whatever.
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well im glad to hear youre okay. And i hope for your sake that you pay them off soon.
but im too sure what doors are opening for me. cos i could fix it real easily but then id have another problem. *sigh* sometimes i dont know what to do.
what im going through, no living thing should ever have go through, yet so many of us do.
im so angry at everything anymore. and yeaaah i might be young, but that doesnt automatically make me nieve. Or does it?
i dont know about anything anymore. im completely numb. Its crazy
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