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i havent really updated in awhile. i havent really felt like being on the computer. i've been reading and drawing and dancing. and yeah. but saturday was show choir practice 11:00-5:00. it was so easy. but fun non the less i suppose. i hung out with Erin and Kat most of the time. and i'm the front for every number. yyyeeeaaah. thats right. i'm the best. uhhh yeah just kidding. and then sunday i had duet practice which was awesome. i love aprils choreography. she thinks shes bad at it but she really can come up with some amazingly pretty & interesting things. um then yesterday i took my western hemisphere exam and got a B! and then i went to chorus which was fun. everyone was done taking the singing test so she told us what parts she thought we should really be in and i'm still an Alto of course. we get to sing with the guys! its so kick assss.
today i took the science exam and got a C and then the gym exam which was suprisingly hard. but since i didnt look at the review paper i was kinda expecting that. today was a really good day. i was very upbeat and happy. and i was with CASSIE and REGAN allllll of gym which made me very happy because they are like two of my favorite PeEpz. yeeuh.
tomorrow New Edition is staying after to practice. i like staying after school. so yeah that should be fun.
uh annnddd tonight. what do i say about tonight?
we've both given up i suppose. not that we were trying to get our friendship back before tonight but now its "official" its really retarded. but i guess "its for the best" he wont ever be the same. nothing will be the same. i wont have the fun loving crazy evan that I knew back again. i mean maybe hes the same but he doesnt act the same towards me and i dont know how to act around him. things are just too fucked up. but i guess i'll miss him. i feel kinda dumb being sad over it since he really hurt my feelings. shouldnt i be angry? ugh. i dont know what to do. but i cant keep doing this thats for sure. i guess i want to know that you'll miss me and then i'll be alright. i guess i want to know that i was even your friend. whatever. this is stupid.
i'm done crying over you.
but i cant help but be hurt.
it really is just so crazy.
i really dont know how i feel about you anymore. i love you. but i want to hate you. your so awesome. but sometimes you fuck up so bad. and it kills me. & it hurts me really bad. and i cant deal with it. so i guess this is goodbye?
hows that for teenage drama? sigh sadly i mean everybit of it
no i don't want you anywhere near me
i don't want you anywhere near me
get your fucking world out of my head
i don't want you anywhere near me
i don't want you anywhere near me
get your fucking world out of my head
i don't want your 'us or them'
oh you don't want me anywhere near you
you don't want me anywhere near you
get my fucking head out of your world
you don't want me anywhere near you
you don't want me anywhere near you
get my fucking head out of your world
i don't want your 'us or them'
the cure;;us or them
today i took the science exam and got a C and then the gym exam which was suprisingly hard. but since i didnt look at the review paper i was kinda expecting that. today was a really good day. i was very upbeat and happy. and i was with CASSIE and REGAN allllll of gym which made me very happy because they are like two of my favorite PeEpz. yeeuh.
tomorrow New Edition is staying after to practice. i like staying after school. so yeah that should be fun.
uh annnddd tonight. what do i say about tonight?
we've both given up i suppose. not that we were trying to get our friendship back before tonight but now its "official" its really retarded. but i guess "its for the best" he wont ever be the same. nothing will be the same. i wont have the fun loving crazy evan that I knew back again. i mean maybe hes the same but he doesnt act the same towards me and i dont know how to act around him. things are just too fucked up. but i guess i'll miss him. i feel kinda dumb being sad over it since he really hurt my feelings. shouldnt i be angry? ugh. i dont know what to do. but i cant keep doing this thats for sure. i guess i want to know that you'll miss me and then i'll be alright. i guess i want to know that i was even your friend. whatever. this is stupid.
i'm done crying over you.
but i cant help but be hurt.
it really is just so crazy.
i really dont know how i feel about you anymore. i love you. but i want to hate you. your so awesome. but sometimes you fuck up so bad. and it kills me. & it hurts me really bad. and i cant deal with it. so i guess this is goodbye?
hows that for teenage drama? sigh sadly i mean everybit of it
no i don't want you anywhere near me
i don't want you anywhere near me
get your fucking world out of my head
i don't want you anywhere near me
i don't want you anywhere near me
get your fucking world out of my head
i don't want your 'us or them'
oh you don't want me anywhere near you
you don't want me anywhere near you
get my fucking head out of your world
you don't want me anywhere near you
you don't want me anywhere near you
get my fucking head out of your world
i don't want your 'us or them'
the cure;;us or them