I took the plunge!
After living the last 2 years in a living hell of a job, I finally did it. I quit! Nothing like screwing a retail company right before Christmas! I told my boss that I couldn't live being sick, tired, and depressed all the time anymore. It isn't fair to me or my family. It's scary because I've worked since I was 14, but I am going to try being a stay at home mom. It will take some getting used to, but I've always known that I wanted my son to remember me raising him, not a daycare provider. She is the sweetest lady, and I know he is going to miss her, but she said anytime I needed someone to watch him she would be willing. I feel like I am finally free. I compare it to the movie Pleasentville, where everything is in black and white and then it turns to color. The world has color again! I know that we will be much tighter on our finances, but I think in the long run this is the best decision. I may end up working a part-time job when Jared is off work, which is fine with me. I finally feel happy! I hope I made the right decision!