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[192020]

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[betweenluvnlies]

I thought that you guys broke up?

[192020]

yeah we did, but he keeps sending me photos of him and stuff, this one..well he has naturally curly hair, lol jewfro...but his mum straightened it. and damn, it looks good.

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[betweenluvnlies]

Well, I don't know everything, but if it hurts, I'd tell him not to do it.

[192020]

I don't....MIND it so bad, i mean we're still best friends, but could he send LESS FLATTERING PICTURES? lol, i still really love him, and i swear i'll likely do something stupid when i move, but for now...i'll just have to deal i guess. However, earlier....well we had nicknames when we were kids, he was Neo and I was Kris Newman...but Neo never had a surname, and I told him today it should be Sain, like Hussain...but just Sain, and he goes "no! Neo Reay," and that really, really got to me.

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[betweenluvnlies]

It is hard, with the past you guys have, but I am surprised you can handle it that much.

[192020]

I handle it okay, but the fact is i know that once i've moved, and we hang out more and more, i'll do some stupid things, because he still suggests sex, and kissing, etc. Like when we broke up, the first thing he said was "we can still kiss..," well as backward as that is, i'm such a sucker.

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[betweenluvnlies]

See, he has no privledge in saying that. You do not break up with someone and say "Well, we can still kiss you know..". You don't lead them on. Emotions will screw you royally over on this one m'dear.

[192020]

Cha, i know emotions will, i guess the only thing i can really hope is that when i move, when we meet up at the airport, that he realizes how stupid he was to break up with me, how insensitive, and juvenile he was afterwards, getting drunk etc. all i can do is hope, right? in the meantime, or atleast if he doesn't admit his fault, all i can do is have that false love that EVERYBODY just adores, and after a while, i'll demand things, if he's willing to sleep with me, kiss me, etc. then there's definitely some things hiding inside him.

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[betweenluvnlies]

If it is false love then it will be false everything, even you thinking he would be hiding things from you.

[192020]

In any other circumstance, i'd say what i'm doing is tricking myself, but in all honesty even after we broke up, he acted like the boyfriend adam he was before, and he's started calling me hun again, and baby, he never did that when we were friends, when we were friends..it was babe, when we dated, it was baby, never hun when we were friends. I think, to really perfectly understand what i'm talking about, you'd have to have known him for years.

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