I miss him....
I miss him so much. I went down and saw my ex today. And I really wish I could have stayed longer. It was weird seeing him. Every time we get together to hang out I just get these vibes. I want him back. I love him. I really do. And I want to tell him that but I am scared. I think i am going to tell him when he comes up. Which he better!! I miss what we had. He kept talking about old memories we had together. It made me sad. I want to make new ones. Ones that we can keep forever and that are not just childish and immature. I want real ones. Not that our old ones aren't. They were just us being young. I hope he comes up and spends New Years Eve with me and my birthday. That would be the best thing ever. It would make me so happy. SALAD, I think you know exactly who I am talking about. I just want us to be together. That would be the best. Gosh, I hate feeling all emotional. It really sucks. And i'm really wanting him to come up. Hope there are no plans for him down there so he can come up and spend even more time with me. Tonight was just not enough time for us. Plus I had my friends with me. Which kinda sucked but oh well. I think I made them mad cause they wanted to get food and I made them wait in my car for like 15 minutes while me and him reminisced our old times. It was great. And he was being bad. Oooooh! ha. I want to take my car down there tomorrow and spend as much time as I can with him. seeing this guy was the best Christmas gift I could ask for. It was the best. Well, yea. sleep.