AHHH

[180_by_summer]

first think im annoyed about is this. My grandma knows, that i love skateboarding. I've wanted my own board for over 3 yrs now. But now that im really really into it, going skating with jeff and andrew, im sick of only being able to skate for like the 3 hrs im with them, using jeff's other board. Andrew said that i can have one of his decks if i buy the wheels for it. but my grandma is being totally dick about it. IM NOT ASKING U TO BUY A $120 BOARD, just $25 wheels. For christs sake. I tell her the price and shes like ok, then she gets this attitude and says, "so u'll get a skateboard, then what?" and im like, what do you mean then what, i skate, what am i gonna do stare at it. FUCK, but yeah im gonna get them anyway especially if my uncle talks to her about it cus he wants to take me to the park near his house. god i love having an uncle who skated.

ok the more important thing, is lauren. I'm just so frustrated with the situation between me and her because it seems like no matter what i say she thinks i don't really care about her. Trust is a big thing with her, if she can't trust me, her "best friend" then i dk who she ever is going to trust. It's like are you serious, your gonna tell me how happy you are to have met me but your not gonna trust me, whats up with that. usually, with any other person i'd just be like fuck it i dont care if you wanna be that way fine. But lauren is really important to me and i dont want it to go down like that.