I'm not Ok ( I Promise )
Trust me. I had THE worst day in my life. All day I felt like crap, and so I go to see Lena, shes the only person that can really cheer me up.. and Nikki is with her, Nikki is tight, but I think she hates me... but for some reason she approves me.. I am lost. So anyways, we go eat McDonalds, and then I'm following Lena and Nikki, and they take me on a wild-goose chase, which as a look back at it now, was pretty funny... so props... but at the time, I felt like I was unwanted, since they were trying to ditch me, ( in my eyes, ) So take SeanZiE, with the factored in "shitty mood from hell" and add " being ditched by the one girl he adores the most"... and you my friends, get SeanZiE, a very very very very unhappy CuLO. I'm not blaming anyone 'cept me, which is fine.. but the feeling I got when I thought that tore me up.. I can't tell you how, why or when this occured, but I have grown really attached to Lena, and I'll admit this. I swear I could hardly breathe... so I peeled out and just said "wateva." In reality I felt like a sack of crap. I feel really bad, and I've said sorry like 31 times I bet... So then, after that I go to 5 tux shops, no luck at any... I get majorly sick... like I'm talkin' I had to pull over it was so bad, I felt like I did before surgery... Damned Double-Double. Seriously, I wanted to barf, crap, and cry all at once, and my stomach just kinda felt like I got hit my a baseball bat. I'm still recovering from it.. so I go to Burlington and snag a shibby suit, and that kinda cheers me up. Sooo.. I guess I just need to breathe, like a friend of mine used to say to me.... I just don't know how I get myself in these situations... I mean don't get me wrong but I didn't think I'd be this caring about Lena at this point in time.. and now it's kinda just I can't help it anymore.. I had the best day ever with her on Wednesday I came home and smiled even in my sleep... This girl has definatly got me hooked, and if she chooses to take me, I'll be the luckiest man ever.. I went out and bought 300$ in clothes for homecoming, just so she could wear the dress she wanted, thats how much I care.... And I just wish I could tell her, to her face, how I really feel, and I was going to.... but she really had to go inside.. So like a fool I let her. Who knows, theres always tomorrow huh... I learned a lot today... and hopefully it'll stick... 1. All of you out there, if you don't have gallbladders.. don't eat animal style, it will kill you. Damn witch is brewing again
that dumb whore. l8r
that dumb whore. l8r