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okay, so basically it's twenty-six minutes past noon on a wednesday. I am still in my pajamas, mostly because I didn't go to sleep until quarter to seven last night - well, this morning. this not being able to sleep thing is starting to bring me down...or at least make me tired as hell. there is, though, something that I really like about going to sleep as the sun is coming up. I guess I would describe myself at the moment as being a mixture of complacent and feeling like clawing my eyes out. right now there are some pretty promising clouds in the sky, and I'm hoping for a thunderstorm. the weather channel said they would be isolated. my fingers are crossed.
I've got gold digger, that kanye west classic, stuck in my head. I keep thinking about how I don't know what to do anymore, and I hate that. I hate indecision.
do you ever wish you were religious, for the sole fact that it would give you something to believe in? I'm not, and I'm not going to be - I don't really see how I ever could be - but that whole having something to put your faith in thing would be nice. but I should be more grateful - I'm at college and I'm lucky and there are people who I love, and I should just stop being so selfish.
fuck it. all of it.
I've got gold digger, that kanye west classic, stuck in my head. I keep thinking about how I don't know what to do anymore, and I hate that. I hate indecision.
do you ever wish you were religious, for the sole fact that it would give you something to believe in? I'm not, and I'm not going to be - I don't really see how I ever could be - but that whole having something to put your faith in thing would be nice. but I should be more grateful - I'm at college and I'm lucky and there are people who I love, and I should just stop being so selfish.
fuck it. all of it.