so much shit
soo much shit has gone down since the last time i wrote, but it always happens that way, me and nicole are having soo many problems i dont know what to do, its like no matter how much i try to make things work nothing is ever ok, and i dont like that i dont like that i have put my heart and soul into this relationship and its not doing nething but going down hill, everyday it just gets worse and worse and for some reason i always am the bad guy, i dont understand how or why but thats how it is, all i do is do for this girl and it seems like its still not enough, there is just soo much shit i am trying to deal with right now and i dont even know how too, what am i supposed to do, how am i supposed to make everything ok