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I was fine, until french class. I dunno, it was just so sad. I watched everyone so excited for us and couldn't do anything but cry. I continued for most of the rest of the day, especially cleaning out my locker, i made Mrs. Brennan cry too. I was listening to everyone say things like oh my god we're finally done, so exicted and my reply oh my it is done. I think i'm just going to sit and cry for a long while and hopefully i'll make it to graduation and throught the ceremony. I feel like everything i was so sure of is gone, most of it is, gymnastics, school, classes and almost anythign that i can think of as at least being familiar to me. I want to go back, i know i can't and i know it would be futile and useless, but i'd rahter be there, even with the annoyances of the rest of my senior class. WOrk sucked, i cryed there to, but i don't think anyone noticed, i'm glad i need to do that alone. I'm driving to graduation alone, i don't know why i but i feel i need to so i will same with going away next year,, i just feel the need to, so thats how it is. Right now i just want to stop crying and thinking.