all alone...

[13thmoon]

I've been feeling really lonely at the moment. Have been for the past couple of months. I s'pose it's because my friends and I are drifting apart. Just the other day I asked one of my friends where the other was, and where she was going...turns out she was going to hang out with said friend, but i was told that i have plenty of other friends so why don't i go hang out with them. Well sure, if I want to be ignored even more than usual. Most of my really good friends arn't even in the country so why should I even bother. To be honest i dont perticually care about how so-and-so from a band is SO hot, and  I don't care if there are spelling mistakes either. Thinking about it, I have very few really close friends...sure there are a few that i annoy on a daily basis with my hyperness and stuff but still, I dont really know much about them... I don't think they know that much about me either. Not any more any way.

Am I forever doomed to suffer from people abandoning me...

I have a fear of it...

I don't want to be alone...