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If I was gone, None of my "close friends" would notice.
They wouldn't care.
It's not like I bring anything special to the group.
I'm too bland.
I'm never a dynamic character, always a static.
For some reason. I don't think Desiree likes me. I feel like a bother to her. Like someone she has to be friends with.
I miss Zac. He was always here. No matter what. He makes me feel like I am a part of something. Unlike everyone else.
I guess people get pleasure out of trying to make someone else look stupid or feel inferior to others. I have never wanted to, nor done that to someone. I would never. That's where the maturity levels of a person truly show.
Sometimes I want to scream, I'm right here! Do you not even notice me?! But I never do. I just stand there while other people conversate about things I have no clue about.
I wish people were interested in what I have to say.
But, that's just what it is. A wish.