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I haven't updated. In a long. ass. time. So here I am. True story.
School still sucks. I've kind of stumbled onto a path to avoid it but I'm going back for attempt #2 after the summer. This time in community college form, as opposed to University (Read: This time, 1/3 the cost for the exact same shit). Work is chill. Life is mostly chill, too. I'm about to do taxes tonight. The money will be nice. Responsibility levels are reaching good lows. Right now I just have a car payment. And a gas-to-get-to-Shary's-house payment.
Some things (Read:people) are confusing. I'm trying to just appreciate the good situations I find myself in, for what they are. Sometimes it's hard, but I think I'm doing a pretty good job. At least better than I would be if it were me a year ago. I feel this is an accomplishment in my personal development. The way humans relate to each other are a delicate matter. The way we're brought up doesn't help out at all. To the point that overcoming our instilled sociality can be used as a measure to said development. Or so I feel.
And on that note, I'm pretty proud of how I've changed the past few years. Though some who used to be very close to me have come to be very judgmental and negative about the choices I've made and the things I've taken interest in. I've come to realize how little I matter to them, and that there's nothing wrong with that. I've have finally been able to well adjust my feelings towards them in compliance. I feel this is another major accomplishment. Losing loved ones is always hard.
And on the subject of loss:
http://www.vonnegut.com/
"I'm embarrassed to have lived this long. It's in terrible taste (laughs). You know I had a fire several years ago, and it would have been so shapely if I'd died in the fire. But here I am, and of course I'm suing the cigarette company because on the package they promised to kill me, and here I am."
Godspeed, Kurt.
School still sucks. I've kind of stumbled onto a path to avoid it but I'm going back for attempt #2 after the summer. This time in community college form, as opposed to University (Read: This time, 1/3 the cost for the exact same shit). Work is chill. Life is mostly chill, too. I'm about to do taxes tonight. The money will be nice. Responsibility levels are reaching good lows. Right now I just have a car payment. And a gas-to-get-to-Shary's-house payment.
Some things (Read:people) are confusing. I'm trying to just appreciate the good situations I find myself in, for what they are. Sometimes it's hard, but I think I'm doing a pretty good job. At least better than I would be if it were me a year ago. I feel this is an accomplishment in my personal development. The way humans relate to each other are a delicate matter. The way we're brought up doesn't help out at all. To the point that overcoming our instilled sociality can be used as a measure to said development. Or so I feel.
And on that note, I'm pretty proud of how I've changed the past few years. Though some who used to be very close to me have come to be very judgmental and negative about the choices I've made and the things I've taken interest in. I've come to realize how little I matter to them, and that there's nothing wrong with that. I've have finally been able to well adjust my feelings towards them in compliance. I feel this is another major accomplishment. Losing loved ones is always hard.
And on the subject of loss:
http://www.vonnegut.com/
"I'm embarrassed to have lived this long. It's in terrible taste (laughs). You know I had a fire several years ago, and it would have been so shapely if I'd died in the fire. But here I am, and of course I'm suing the cigarette company because on the package they promised to kill me, and here I am."
Godspeed, Kurt.