It hurts....
Title:It hurts
Pairing: Broken!Kyumin , Kyuhyuk
Rating:PG
Genre:Angst
Summary: It just hurts to know
Disclaimer: I dont own any of the Suju members mention or Vivi :( BUT! I own jessie unnie :) Haha~<333
It hurts to know. It hurts to know that the lover that promised to love you forever,broke this promise. It just hurts to know that the same person that taught you to love and trust, betrayed your trust and destroyed love for you forever. It hurts to know that the one who you trusted with your secrets and the one who prompt you to tell your lover bout ur real feelings, betrayed you. What hurts the most was that, you have been double crossed by the two most important people of your life at the same time. The pain is unbearable. Like someone shot me in the chest,then came over to step on me a few more times.
I knew. I knew that what you claimed was fan-service were actually real. I knew that there were more than just friendship between both of you.I knew that both of you touched each other every night in China. I knew everything bout both of you.I knew everything that happened between both of you. I knew what happened every night in China but yet i pretend, I pretend that everything was fake. I pretend that I was just being paranoid. I pretend that i was halluciating.I just kept telling myself it isnt real , I was just lying to myself. Now, i can no longer lie to myself.
I cant no longer hide in the self somforting lies. I can no longer pretend nothing happened. I can no longer hide the wreck i am inside of me. I can no longer hide the emotions.
I can no longer hide from the truth. The truth that hurts so much. The scene that i wish to unsee is rewinding in head. The pain that i wish can go away everytime the scene
plays in my head remains there permananlty. Why did u do this to me? I thought you promised to love me forever? Why were you lying on top of Eunhyuk, Both half naked? I stood rooted
on the ground for a while.I picked up my legs and ran, you were chasing behind me shouting'Sungmin! Sungmin! Its not what you think!' I ran even faster, I ran like never before. My eyes
blurring my sight and my thumping heart hurting my chest.I ran into a mall and dashed fot the toilet. I locked myself in the cubicle,turning around, I slowly slid down to the floor.
Hugging my knees to my chest. I sobbed silently for what i felt was eternity.
I came out of the cubicle and walked to the sink. I washed my face and looked into the mirror, 'What is wrong with me?!Am i not good enough?!' . I looked like i was about to cry again.
But i cant, I just cant.I had to be strong. I didnt want anyone to worry bout me. So i walked back to the dorm and i tried my best to wear a smile when i walked in. Ryeowook and Yesung
fussed over me, yelling at me,' Where the hell did you go?' I smiled and replied,' Just out for a walk'. Before they could say anything,' Yah~ I am tired. So i am just goin to go back
to my room,' I walked into my shared room with him, As expected he was waiting for me in the room. I walked in and he griped my wrist.
'Sungmin hyung.'
'WHAT! what do you want from me?'
'Hyung what u saw wasnt real.'
'CHO KYUHYUN! STOP IT! JUST STOP LYING!! I KNOW VERY WELL IT WAS REAL! I KNOW VERY WELL BECAUSE I HAVE CAUGHT YOU TWO MORE THAN THREE TIMES ALREADY! HPW? U MUST
THINK? HOW WAS I ABLE TO BE SO PATIENT WITH YOU? WITH THIS? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! BUT U WENT ON TO JUST BREAK MY HEART WITH LIES!!' He was shocked but the grip onmy wrist was still strong.
But i managed to break free and dashed out of the dorm.Leaing behind a shocked yewook couple in the living room, I had no destination i just wanted to get out of there.
I ran into a small park and sat on a bench,this time i didnt care.I just cried out loud, not caring when people started staring at me while walking past me. Suddenly ifelt a tap on my shoulder
and i saw this little girl.She smiled at me and asked' Oppa~ Are you okay?' I replied 'Oppa is not feeling well'Well it is true, my heart was broken. 'Oppa, I hope you get well soon and please dont
cry! I think u look very handsome when you smile' Awww~ I felt better at that time.'And oppa? Dont be sad anymore~ Vivi dont like to see handsome oppas to be sad.' And she showed me the most cutest
toothless grin ever~ Suddenly, I heard two voices calling'VIVI!' I turned around to see it was two teenage girls. They rushed to the girl named Vivi's side and turned to me and introduced themsleves,'Annyeong!I am Angela and this is Jessie' The short girl gestured to herself then to the tall girl beside her. I just nodded my head,smiled and picked myself up from the bench and walked back to the dorm.Because of that girl, I learnt to smile and to be strong. Because of that girl,
I learned to overcome the pain when i see Kyuhyun and Eunhyuk together.Even though it still hurts from time to time, the sentence that will come up will be:
'I dont like to see Handsome oppas to be sad.' And it will just pull me through anything.
Thank you, Vivi. Thank you for telling me that :)
A/N: LOL~ I did a cameo!!! VIVI ,Jessie!!! And me! LOL~ Haha~ The one shot which is linked to the chaptered fic that i will write~ LOL~ Sorry it took so long! I promise the chaptered fic will be up very soon~~~~Lalala~
Pairing: Broken!Kyumin , Kyuhyuk
Rating:PG
Genre:Angst
Summary: It just hurts to know
Disclaimer: I dont own any of the Suju members mention or Vivi :( BUT! I own jessie unnie :) Haha~<333
It hurts to know. It hurts to know that the lover that promised to love you forever,broke this promise. It just hurts to know that the same person that taught you to love and trust, betrayed your trust and destroyed love for you forever. It hurts to know that the one who you trusted with your secrets and the one who prompt you to tell your lover bout ur real feelings, betrayed you. What hurts the most was that, you have been double crossed by the two most important people of your life at the same time. The pain is unbearable. Like someone shot me in the chest,then came over to step on me a few more times.
I knew. I knew that what you claimed was fan-service were actually real. I knew that there were more than just friendship between both of you.I knew that both of you touched each other every night in China. I knew everything bout both of you.I knew everything that happened between both of you. I knew what happened every night in China but yet i pretend, I pretend that everything was fake. I pretend that I was just being paranoid. I pretend that i was halluciating.I just kept telling myself it isnt real , I was just lying to myself. Now, i can no longer lie to myself.
I cant no longer hide in the self somforting lies. I can no longer pretend nothing happened. I can no longer hide the wreck i am inside of me. I can no longer hide the emotions.
I can no longer hide from the truth. The truth that hurts so much. The scene that i wish to unsee is rewinding in head. The pain that i wish can go away everytime the scene
plays in my head remains there permananlty. Why did u do this to me? I thought you promised to love me forever? Why were you lying on top of Eunhyuk, Both half naked? I stood rooted
on the ground for a while.I picked up my legs and ran, you were chasing behind me shouting'Sungmin! Sungmin! Its not what you think!' I ran even faster, I ran like never before. My eyes
blurring my sight and my thumping heart hurting my chest.I ran into a mall and dashed fot the toilet. I locked myself in the cubicle,turning around, I slowly slid down to the floor.
Hugging my knees to my chest. I sobbed silently for what i felt was eternity.
I came out of the cubicle and walked to the sink. I washed my face and looked into the mirror, 'What is wrong with me?!Am i not good enough?!' . I looked like i was about to cry again.
But i cant, I just cant.I had to be strong. I didnt want anyone to worry bout me. So i walked back to the dorm and i tried my best to wear a smile when i walked in. Ryeowook and Yesung
fussed over me, yelling at me,' Where the hell did you go?' I smiled and replied,' Just out for a walk'. Before they could say anything,' Yah~ I am tired. So i am just goin to go back
to my room,' I walked into my shared room with him, As expected he was waiting for me in the room. I walked in and he griped my wrist.
'Sungmin hyung.'
'WHAT! what do you want from me?'
'Hyung what u saw wasnt real.'
'CHO KYUHYUN! STOP IT! JUST STOP LYING!! I KNOW VERY WELL IT WAS REAL! I KNOW VERY WELL BECAUSE I HAVE CAUGHT YOU TWO MORE THAN THREE TIMES ALREADY! HPW? U MUST
THINK? HOW WAS I ABLE TO BE SO PATIENT WITH YOU? WITH THIS? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! BUT U WENT ON TO JUST BREAK MY HEART WITH LIES!!' He was shocked but the grip onmy wrist was still strong.
But i managed to break free and dashed out of the dorm.Leaing behind a shocked yewook couple in the living room, I had no destination i just wanted to get out of there.
I ran into a small park and sat on a bench,this time i didnt care.I just cried out loud, not caring when people started staring at me while walking past me. Suddenly ifelt a tap on my shoulder
and i saw this little girl.She smiled at me and asked' Oppa~ Are you okay?' I replied 'Oppa is not feeling well'Well it is true, my heart was broken. 'Oppa, I hope you get well soon and please dont
cry! I think u look very handsome when you smile' Awww~ I felt better at that time.'And oppa? Dont be sad anymore~ Vivi dont like to see handsome oppas to be sad.' And she showed me the most cutest
toothless grin ever~ Suddenly, I heard two voices calling'VIVI!' I turned around to see it was two teenage girls. They rushed to the girl named Vivi's side and turned to me and introduced themsleves,'Annyeong!I am Angela and this is Jessie' The short girl gestured to herself then to the tall girl beside her. I just nodded my head,smiled and picked myself up from the bench and walked back to the dorm.Because of that girl, I learnt to smile and to be strong. Because of that girl,
I learned to overcome the pain when i see Kyuhyun and Eunhyuk together.Even though it still hurts from time to time, the sentence that will come up will be:
'I dont like to see Handsome oppas to be sad.' And it will just pull me through anything.
Thank you, Vivi. Thank you for telling me that :)
A/N: LOL~ I did a cameo!!! VIVI ,Jessie!!! And me! LOL~ Haha~ The one shot which is linked to the chaptered fic that i will write~ LOL~ Sorry it took so long! I promise the chaptered fic will be up very soon~~~~Lalala~