i feel icky.
Wow. i really havent seen this journal inna while. i feel really sick. for some odd reason. maybe it was just the effect of that AWFUL movie i just watched. saved! wow. that was ridiculously stupid. and the girl got pregnant and was getting sick..so maybe that made me sick? i dunno. at least im not pregnant. thats gotta suck at 17.
on a MORE serious note...today was another day filled of reminders of mrs. diamaduros and andrew. I was working alll day long at church(great money)and as i was watching the east meck guys play at 830 in the freakin morning, i was looking at nick johnson, a football player playing basketball..and the guys on the other team that MUST have played football, and that just made me think that ANDREW SHOULD BE THERE. not gone. ITS JUST NOT FAIR. and of course, i noticed some of the guy's shoes (go ahead, make fun kirby) and i dunno..they just reminded me of andrew. because i dunno. its difficult to explain. then tonight, as i was at dairy queen with laura, claire, jenb, and kates, i thought of going to dairy queen with kirb and his parents, and then that reminded me of shopping at old navy, and picking out those boxers that kirb got for christmas this year from his mom. crazy how such little things can remind me of so many wonderful memories of awesome people.
on a more PERSONAL note, i've been thinking a lot lately about my life. and how wonderful all my friends are. always there for me and such. me and jenb had the longest hug ever today. and it was wonderful. made me think back to those lovely clemson days before things got complicated. wishful thinking. i was right in naming my painting that sara, cuz thats how i wish my life was. crazy and free.
"things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do. and i would gladly hit the road, get up and go if i knew, that someday it would lead me back to you. that may be ALL i NEED. I never want to leave."
on a MORE serious note...today was another day filled of reminders of mrs. diamaduros and andrew. I was working alll day long at church(great money)and as i was watching the east meck guys play at 830 in the freakin morning, i was looking at nick johnson, a football player playing basketball..and the guys on the other team that MUST have played football, and that just made me think that ANDREW SHOULD BE THERE. not gone. ITS JUST NOT FAIR. and of course, i noticed some of the guy's shoes (go ahead, make fun kirby) and i dunno..they just reminded me of andrew. because i dunno. its difficult to explain. then tonight, as i was at dairy queen with laura, claire, jenb, and kates, i thought of going to dairy queen with kirb and his parents, and then that reminded me of shopping at old navy, and picking out those boxers that kirb got for christmas this year from his mom. crazy how such little things can remind me of so many wonderful memories of awesome people.
on a more PERSONAL note, i've been thinking a lot lately about my life. and how wonderful all my friends are. always there for me and such. me and jenb had the longest hug ever today. and it was wonderful. made me think back to those lovely clemson days before things got complicated. wishful thinking. i was right in naming my painting that sara, cuz thats how i wish my life was. crazy and free.
"things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do. and i would gladly hit the road, get up and go if i knew, that someday it would lead me back to you. that may be ALL i NEED. I never want to leave."