Failure Toy
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Title: Failure Toy
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: All the members belong to themselves and SME
Warning: Unbetaed as always
Genre: AU! / Angst / Fluff / Romance
Pairing: YeTeuk, Yesung/ Eeteuk slight Kangteuk
Word count: 3103
Summary: He kept failing over and over but he didn't mind being his toy because he loved him...
Eeteuk threw his bag on to his bed. He was drunk and angry. It was the third time Kangin canceled their date. He was sure that Kangin cheated again and this time, he would not give him another apologize.
“Teukie hyung, what happened,” he was startled hearing that deep voice.
“Yesungie, since when-?” Eeteuk smiled at his childhood friend, gesturing him for walking in to his room.
“I was in your living room when you suddenly rushed in and head toward your room. I thought you didn’t recognize me and your mom said that something happened and pushed me to come here,” he sat near Eeteuk, studying the older angry feature. “Is it Kangin again?”
“He called our date off again and here I am, forgotten and abandoned,” he said bitterly.
“You know that I will not abandon you, Teukie hyung,” Yesung squeezed the older hands smoothly.
Yesung had a big secret he didn’t want anyone to find out. He was in big crush with his childhood friend, Eeteuk. They became adult together and he never dared to dream making Eeteuk his. He felt inferior toward him. Eeteuk was a member of student council and Yesung was known as the fail man or invisible one in their classmate.
When it came to ridiculous or lame performance for their class show, the character would fall to him or when their class needed to be decorated for festival, they will put in on Yesung solely and everybody knew that he will never objected it. Different from his hilarious stage performance, he was rather shy. Sometimes he would talk to his turtle pet, or his imaginary friend, the face-drawn toilet tissue under his closet. He was Kangin best friend, and unfortunately, Eeteuk was dating him before Eeteuk found that Kangin cheating on him. But Kangin always manage to get Eeteuk back. Yesung didn’t know whether it because Teukie love him so much or what.
“Yesungie, what do you think of me?” Eeteuk asked the smaller one while playing with his fingers. “Do you think I’m not good enough so that Kangin always betray me?”
“No- No hyung, I thought that you are a lot better than that. You’re a nice person, hyung,” Yesung stroke his hyung’s back hand.
“Then, I will stop to be a nice person,” Eeteuk chuckled slightly. His face showed a wide grin, “I will be a bad person that playing with people heart,” he curled himself on the bed.
“You don’t fit that character, Hyung,”
“Hey Yesungie, you want me to add you to my toy list?” he giggled.
Yesung felt his heart hammered in his chest. He didn’t dare to move but then he was quite sure that Eeteuk was drunk and that was the alcohol who talking to him now, “I think you need sleep for now,” he smiled weakly then covered his hyung body with blanket, “Night, Hyung,”
The next day Yesung visited him. It was a habit that they always walked together to school before Kangin became Eeteuk boyfriend. But despite Eeteuk actual bright smile, he was greeted by his clouded face. Eeteuk bowed deeply before him. “Yesungie, I apologize for yesterday. I don’t know what I said… I was drunk and- Ye-Yesungie?” before he could finish his words, Yesung had embraced him into a tight hug.
“I think about it yesterday night and I don’t really care. I want to be your toy if you need me to,” Yesung said, slowly pressed his forehead against the older’s shoulder.
The older looked at him, unsure, “Yesungie, I know you’re a kind person, but it’s-”
“No buts, Teukie,” Yesung parted from the other a bit then looked at him firmly, “And don’t feel sorry, I just want you to be happy, that’s all,” and Yesung pulled Eeteuk back, kissing the top of his head.
Having someone that always there for you is something that Eeteuk was dreaming of. When he was in relationship with Kangin, it always him to make a move and arranged the date. It’s a bit tiring when your boyfriend feeling wasn’t as big as yours, and Eeteuk found it was the opposite when he was in relationship with Yesung.
“Teukie hyung, are you okay?!” Eeteuk was on his way to school clinic when he saw his dongsaeng run toward him and slung the smaller hand around the older shoulder. Eeteuk injured his legs when he played football during his lunch break. His leg was bleeding. Yesung carefully brought him to school clinic. No one was there and Yesung decided he will treat Eeteuk by himself.
“Yesungie, why are you here? I thought you had class now,” he asked while seeing Yesung took a bandage from first aids kit.
“I skipped my class… Despite, no one will know that I am not there. It’s more important,” his small eyes looking on to Eeteuk wounded leg. “You hurt yourself,” he frowned and slowly unwraped the bandage.
Seeing his dongsaeng serious face, Eeteuk suddenly wanted to tease him, “Don’t worry, it will heal if you lick it,” he chuckled. He was waiting how red the other face would be and was ready to burst in to a laugh just from imagining it. But his laugh died in his throat when Yesung looked him with a firm, gentle eyes.
“If that what you want, Master,” Yesung bowed down and stick his tongue out, slowly licking the older bleeding leg, sending a small shiver down to Eeteuk spine. The sensation that Eeteuk felt was unbearable. His heart thumped loudly against his chest. He looked Yesung tongue caressed his reddish skin in the most sensual way.
“S-Stop,” Eeteuk felt his knees weakened.
“But it’s still bleeding,” Yesung murmured while busily doing his job. His hot breath roaming against Eeteuk wounded legs. Eeteuk bit his bottom lip but a small moan escaped from his mouth successfully when his dongsaeng sucked his skin and drew blood from there.
“It’s clean now,” Yesung got up, smirking slightly, his eyes leveling with Eeteuk. Eeteuk eyes widened when he saw his toy licked the small trace of blood on the corner of his lips. Heat slowly crawled on his skin, making his face flushed. A small lump trapped in his throat.
“Hyung?”
“I- I think I will back to my class,” Eeteuk walked out. He didn’t want the other saw his black red face. It was really weird. He doesn’t have any feeling for Yesung right? Then why his heart ache so much?
Every morning Yesung would wake him up with his ‘magic’ voice, he would whisper a good morning greeting near the older ears. Strangely, it was able to make the older heart beat faster. Yesung didn’t have to wait in front of Eeteuk room when he needed to wake him up. They were best friend for long time and Eeteuk parents had considered him as their second children.
“Let me sleep,” it was holiday and Eeteuk planning to sleep but Yesung had dragged him out from his comfortable state.
“Teukie hyung, don’t waste this great time with sleeping all day. Let’s go to amusement park. I heard today they open new attraction,” Yesung smiled and pushed him into bathroom.
After taking a bath, Eeteuk lazily followed Yesung to amusement park. He was waiting on the bench while Yesung bought him a cold drink. Eeteuk quite amused how Yesung treated him. He wondered if that is what Kangin felt when Eeteuk tried so hard to give him attention. He swept his eyes over the crowd. And he was numbed with the view before him. It was Kangin, kissing a girl¬, different girl from before. Heck, he was still Eeteuk boyfriend although their relationship had no status.
“So, it is your excuse to cancel our date?” Eeteuk came near Kangin, his voice cold and indifferent. Kangin eyes widened when he saw Eeteuk swinging his hand and slapped him really hard. “Don’t ever beg on me again. We are done!” Eeteuk walked away, leaving the dumfounded Kangin.
Even he said those fierce words, the truth that his heart broken was inevitable. But he would never shed any tears for him again. Never.
“Hyung,” Yesung looked at him, from his face he knew what was going on. “Let’s go,” he dropped the cold drinks from his hand and grabbed Eeteuk away from that awful situation.
It was raining and they went to Yesung home instead of Eeteuk’s because it nearer and they needed shelter immediately. “Hyung, let’s warm you inside,” he handed Eeteuk a glass of ginger tea.
The older took it nervously. He felt like he saved again by this so called weirdo in his class. “You’re so cute Yesungie, I wondered why I just recognize it now,” he smiled sheepishly.
“I consider that as a compliment, master,” Yesung said playfully despite his slightly red cheeks.
Eeteuk laughed heartedly, “Weirdo,”
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Those words made Yesung mind flashing back to their old times. Before Eeteuk and Kangin became a couple, he always looking at this hyung with respect, and that feeling had grown bigger and bigger. It was in autumn when Yesung was performing his class drama. Eeteuk watched it as well. And it was chaos when a property suddenly began to falling apart. His classmate blamed him for the chaos since he was the one who were in charge for decorating but Eeteuk defended him, saying that it was their fault that they only put the responsible only for Yesung. Kangin, as the class representative apologized first and then it became a whole class that apologized to Yesung. It was the first time, someone and a whole party apologize to him.
When Yesung run after him and thanked him for that, Eeteuk chuckled, “Maybe you’re weird, but you’re not a failure, Yesungie. You always do your best,” he patted the smaller head.
And that time he knew that he was fall in love with him. He didn’t know whether that was a good event or not because it was the Kangin and Eeteuk first met. After that, Kangin always follow him and ask him anything about Eeteuk and he knew that his friend had fallen in love with Eeteuk too. He took a step back since he thought he was no match for Kangin and his nightmare became true, they announced to him that they were officially a couple. There was time when Yesung wanted to snatch Eeteuk away from Kangin but he didn’t have strength or guts to do it. He hoped that they were happy and he would gladly watch over them despite his broken heart.
If Kangin didn’t hesitate to show his feeling toward Eeteuk, Yesung would do it secretly, on his own way. When Eeteuk forgot to bring an umbrella, he would lend it to Kangin, saying that Eeteuk were waiting him in his class and he didn’t need to worry since Yesung had brought a spare and begged him to not telling Eeteuk it was his umbrella. “You will ruin the mood,” he reasoned. When Eeteuk was sick, he would stay all night, making him a ginger tea and then leave noiselessly when the older had fallen asleep.
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Eeteuk woke up when he felt a feather like caress touching his cheeks. He opened his eyes and snapped completely when he saw Yesung smiled gently to him. His arm warped over Eeteuk waist. The older one felt heat had covered his body. When did he fall asleep? And why did he feel so hot from the other light touch? Those questions spinning over his head and before he found the answer, he got up abruptly, freeing himself from Yesung embrace.
“I think I overslept…” Eeteuk said when he saw moonlight penetrated the small window above him. “Thank you for your company, Yesungie, I feel lot better now,” he wanted to go out before his heart broke out from his ribs.
“Hyung,” Yesung grabbed him, prevented Eeteuk from escaping. “Let me escort you. It was still raining outside,”
They walked in silent under Yesung black umbrella before Eeteuk spoke, “There was time when Kangin and I walked together under one umbrella like this,” he recalled the past event in his head. “He used to be a gentle person, I didn’t know what change him into a player like this,” Eeteuk sighed deeply.
Yesung didn’t give any comment, instead gazed down to pavement. Eeteuk tilted his head up then his eyes widened, “This umbrella, did you borrow it from Kangin?” he asked when he found out that it was the same umbrella that they used back then.
“Uh, yes” Yesung lied.
“Oh,” silent again.
After 15 minutes, they arrived in front of Eeteuk house. “Thanks,” he smiled and kissed Yesung cheek. “That’s a reward for your kindness,” he was about to disappeared when a tight grip preventing him to move any further.
The taste of Eeteuk lips were still lingering on Yesung cheeks and made butterfly dancing in his stomach. He didn’t have time to think when he leaned toward Eeteuk and closed his lips over the older.
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It’s been a week since he kissed Eeteuk and the older had avoided him for those seven days. Since then, Eeteuk always woke up earlier so Yesung couldn’t walk together with him to school or came home really late at night. In tenth day, Yesung couldn’t bear it anymore and decided that he had to meet Eeteuk to solve his problem. He ran to Eeteuk class and found him was arguing with Kangin. It seemed that they was too absorb to whatever they were debating and didn’t realized Yesung had stood there.
“What are you talking about?!” Eeteuk spat at Kangin. “Don’t put the blame on the other if you can be faithful to me,”
“You can ask him if you want,” Kangin intimidating voice echoed through the corridor.
“We- We’re just best friend, childhood friend!” Eeteuk yelled.
“So you chose him over me?” Kangin gazed down on him, inspecting every bits of the older feature. “You chose this loser, failure, instead of me?” he let out a mocking laugh.
Yesung gulped in antipation what Eeteuk answer could be. He knew that Eeteuk always love Kangin more than he ever know. If he wasn’t, why he kept coming back to Kangin?
“I will definitely rather chose him than you,” Yesung almost forgot how to breath when he heard that statement.
“It’s you that betrayed me first,” Kangin was about to stepped on when Yesung had rushed in and pulled him down to the floor.
“I will not allow you to touch him!”
“It’s between me and him, what makes you think you had right to interrupt us!?”
“Because I love him!!” Yesung was jerked from his own voice. He didn’t mean that… Not because that he didn’t love Eeteuk but saying it before him… was the last thing he wanted to do. His eyes almost watering of the thought Eeteuk would hate him after this but his tongue slip it out, and he couldn’t think anymore, “I love him, I love him, I love him!!!!!” he had confessed and his heart was ready to exploded. “I love him that’s why I wouldn’t allow you to lay a finger on him,” his voice weakened. He laid limp on the floor.
He prepared himself getting hit by Kangin, but instead of that, the other just passing by. Yesung glanced to him and saw hurt on his eyes before he disappeared. “Told you so,” Kangin murmured hoarsely, leaving them rooted on their feet.
Yesung opened his mouth but closed it again, he didn’t dare say a word. After a moment of awkward silent, he mumbling, almost inaudible, “Please don’t hate me,” he let a single tear falling down.
Eeteuk didn’t look at Yesung, he was backing the smaller one. “I supposed to not love you, right?” Yesung whispered weakly. “Because you don’t feel the same to me and I just your toy so I don’t have the right to had a feeling for my master, do I?” his heart hurt, he guessed that he would die from the thought that Eeteuk would hate him. He stood up, clutching his hand on to his hyung cloth. “Hyung, I’m sorry,” he kept his gaze down.
“Such a waste,” Yesung heart stopped the moment he heard that. The most important person in his life said that he was a failure…
“Please, I’m sorry. I would do anything but don’t hate me…” his vision became to blur as tears slowly forming on his eyes. Yesung shivered slightly, curling his hand in to a fist.
“You can call me failure. You can kick me, punch me… Just don’t hate me… Don’t… I- I-”
And this time it was Yesung eyes’ widened when a soft pair of lips captured on his own. “I told you before, you’re not a failure Yesungie,” Eeteuk smiled between the kisses. “it such a waste… because I have to think for the whole 7 days to realize that I falling in love with you,” he caressed the smaller one cheek, his eyes softened when he saw the tremble feature in front of him. “I kept telling myself that I didn’t love you. That I cannot love my best friend, but I’ve fall eventually,”
Yesung couldn’t believe his ears and eyes. It must be a dream. It was a forbidden thing he didn’t dare to imagine of. “I- I thought you still love Kangin,” Yesung said nervously, he averted his gaze from Eeteuk.
“It was because of you,” Eeteuk sighed deeply. “I thought he was a gentle person because he defended you that time, because he borrowed me your umbrella, because he made me glass of ginger tea whenever I got sick… I thought it was him,” he hugged the shivering boy tighter. “Why did you have to keep it secret?” Eeteuk asked him, ruffling his dongsaeng hairs.
“Because I didn’t have anything I can proud of… I felt tiny to you. I’m, I’m a failure,”
“On the other hand, you successfully steal my heart,” Eeteuk smiled at him, pressing their foreheads together.” And you better not failing this one, okay?” he pulled away and looked at Yesung. It was a warning tone in his voice,“It is your last and eternal job as my toy,”
Yesung let out a small chuckle, slinging his arms on Eeteuk neck and pulling him closer. His eyes was studying the angelic face before him, trailing his hand on the other delicate skin before kissed him passionately, and confessing his love again and again. And he promised that he will not fail this time, not this one…
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First time write anything beside KT O_o *right now I'm craving for Yeteuk and Kyuteuk
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