venting or just writing nonsense...
My room is almost completely done...at least all the painting is. So pretty much Im exhausted. I've been tired this entire week. I slept a lot last night and i still was extremely tired when I went out to breakfast. I'm pretty much staying the entire week at kaylas because her parents are out of town. We havent really gotten a chance to do much though because ive had to work almost every night and when i get home we're both dead and end up sleeping right away lol. So tonight we're supposed to do something with a bunch of people but I cant go to Skrappys because I have to stay home for dinner...yeah it was kind of annoying but hopefully we'll do stuff afterwards. It's definately weird knowing my best friend and a bunch or our friends are hanging out with my boyfriend. Definately know how you feel now about Wildlife park Kerry. What frusturates me is i told both of them to call me to let me know what the plan is and neither one have their phones turned on now and i cant get ahold of ashley either so they're all there and no one bothered to call me before.
Last night I was talking to daniel and it really bothered me when he told me about stuff going on but he said he couldnt give me details because it was personal.i mean i understand it's personal and all but you say you love me yet cant be open with me? Definately showed me something last night and Im still not letting my guard down. I don't know that just really bothered me. Ok and this is going to sound incredibly selfish and jealous beyond woah but it bothers me ust a bit that him and ashley are really good friends. I dont think it would bother me if I didnt know her but I do and it does. I mean I trust her completely and know she would never do anything and im pretty sure i trust him completely but that has nothing to with it it's just the fact that they're really good friends. I dont know meghans selfishness comes out as you can see.
I have no clue why im even writing this stuff im pretty much just in the mood to write and i could care less if anyone even bothers reading this. I hate not trusting people...I just cant do it though. I've tried and it sucked so I just cant...or at least it takes me a long long long time. SO I guess I can say Ive lied to his face by saying I do trust him when in reality i dont fully. I Dont trust anyone anymore. There is not one person on this planet that knows everything. But then again we all have our secrets right? ok so I lied I do trust 2 people...one of whom lives a million miles away and one whom no one would ever guess...It's really weird too because I can call him bawling about something even if we havent spoken to eachother in months and he'll still sit there and do either one of two things 1: listen and really listen or 2:talk about something completely differnet that makes me smile. Yeah not everyone can pull it off but somehow he can and it I love him for it. Yeah it's not who you think.
Talk about randomness...whatever I feel better. I just wish someone would have called. Im highly considering just not doing anything tonight because im so tired and annoyed but on the other hand my car is at Kaylas so yeah. gahhh I just want to go home...im not sure where that is though.
Last night I was talking to daniel and it really bothered me when he told me about stuff going on but he said he couldnt give me details because it was personal.i mean i understand it's personal and all but you say you love me yet cant be open with me? Definately showed me something last night and Im still not letting my guard down. I don't know that just really bothered me. Ok and this is going to sound incredibly selfish and jealous beyond woah but it bothers me ust a bit that him and ashley are really good friends. I dont think it would bother me if I didnt know her but I do and it does. I mean I trust her completely and know she would never do anything and im pretty sure i trust him completely but that has nothing to with it it's just the fact that they're really good friends. I dont know meghans selfishness comes out as you can see.
I have no clue why im even writing this stuff im pretty much just in the mood to write and i could care less if anyone even bothers reading this. I hate not trusting people...I just cant do it though. I've tried and it sucked so I just cant...or at least it takes me a long long long time. SO I guess I can say Ive lied to his face by saying I do trust him when in reality i dont fully. I Dont trust anyone anymore. There is not one person on this planet that knows everything. But then again we all have our secrets right? ok so I lied I do trust 2 people...one of whom lives a million miles away and one whom no one would ever guess...It's really weird too because I can call him bawling about something even if we havent spoken to eachother in months and he'll still sit there and do either one of two things 1: listen and really listen or 2:talk about something completely differnet that makes me smile. Yeah not everyone can pull it off but somehow he can and it I love him for it. Yeah it's not who you think.
Talk about randomness...whatever I feel better. I just wish someone would have called. Im highly considering just not doing anything tonight because im so tired and annoyed but on the other hand my car is at Kaylas so yeah. gahhh I just want to go home...im not sure where that is though.