Decisions.
My sister told me this morning that everybody in Biz is looking for me already. That I always update my lj but never even went there, not even once.
It's my fault that I can't come in there much as I did back then. Can't even step into soompi. UGH. I'm banned, darn it! Well, by the higher ups in this house and not by the admins or mods in said forums.
When we had a working computer again, I immediately jumped in to the old ways and even took up a lot of responsibilities. Now I feel guilty everyday for not being able to own up and do what I have to do because of my own mistakes. Instead of jumping right in, I should have taken it easy first and let myself recover fully. I guess I didn't know my own health's vulnerability. So a few months after being the active person that I really am, I got sick again and thus, my online time was lessened, banned for any more fangirling until I get better.
DAMN.
It's my fault that I can't come in there much as I did back then. Can't even step into soompi. UGH. I'm banned, darn it! Well, by the higher ups in this house and not by the admins or mods in said forums.
When we had a working computer again, I immediately jumped in to the old ways and even took up a lot of responsibilities. Now I feel guilty everyday for not being able to own up and do what I have to do because of my own mistakes. Instead of jumping right in, I should have taken it easy first and let myself recover fully. I guess I didn't know my own health's vulnerability. So a few months after being the active person that I really am, I got sick again and thus, my online time was lessened, banned for any more fangirling until I get better.
DAMN.