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JR sent me the most awful voicemail I wasn't going to put up with it. I broke up with him and he said what he said was a mistake. blah blah... I went to class moved on with my life and he showed up outside waitting for me that day. :p And if he didn't show up that day we would be over. I'm very glad we are still together. Last friday, I had lots of fun with him although I should have been doing homework. But we went to the condo cause he had to look after it for his parents while they were out of town. It's in the Catlaina next to sabino canyon so it's beautiful up there. When he came he was very tierd from work cause he was running the business for his mom so he had to clean like a maniac. There was a mix up so he had to clean super fast. So he was very tierd when he came home and I wanted to go swimming and we did. It was lots of fun, then we walked the dogs then fed them then after tat we took a stroll at the encantada mall, that was lots of fun. We bought some chinese food on the way back and some green tea ice cream from Aj's and ate while watching TV.
Although i'm back together with him, things aren't the same. I'm just not into it anymore. I tell him i don't want to; I don't feel well.
Lately, I've been having lots of dream anxiety. I feel like throwing up when I eat sometimes, and i get so tierd. I can't tell the difference between the real and fake anymore. I have dreams bout doing my homework when I really havn't gotten it done, about my car getting hit by a bus, about my boyfriend telling me that his ex girlfriend has the same car interest and that she's so cool, beautiful and fun. I was very mad in my dream when he told me this so i draged him out of my car by his hair and started to beat him up for being such as ass hole. Yes, I was VERY mad although it was a dream. Then ocasionnally glimspes of jong are in there and it's never pleasent.
I probably havn't been noticing my stress cause i've been spending alot. for these past 2 weeks, I think i've spent about 200 on food. BAD, no sourse of income. Tuition is raising. BAD. so, I need to monitor myself more.
I love JR lots, we had lots of fun. I see myself getting serious with him, But I don't see myself marrying him. He's smart but an idiot at the same time. And he's stubborn. He wants to be a phamacist, but he's complaining about the classes being too hard and he's taking them at pima and only 2 classes. I want to tell him man up they are going to be hard regaurdless. It's pharmacy school if he wants to do it so he shouldn't be complaining. I don't see lien complaining like he does or anyone eles. 2 classes are nothing compared to a full schedule. I wish he worked with life rather than acting as if he were a victim. I hate people like that.
Although i'm back together with him, things aren't the same. I'm just not into it anymore. I tell him i don't want to; I don't feel well.
Lately, I've been having lots of dream anxiety. I feel like throwing up when I eat sometimes, and i get so tierd. I can't tell the difference between the real and fake anymore. I have dreams bout doing my homework when I really havn't gotten it done, about my car getting hit by a bus, about my boyfriend telling me that his ex girlfriend has the same car interest and that she's so cool, beautiful and fun. I was very mad in my dream when he told me this so i draged him out of my car by his hair and started to beat him up for being such as ass hole. Yes, I was VERY mad although it was a dream. Then ocasionnally glimspes of jong are in there and it's never pleasent.
I probably havn't been noticing my stress cause i've been spending alot. for these past 2 weeks, I think i've spent about 200 on food. BAD, no sourse of income. Tuition is raising. BAD. so, I need to monitor myself more.
I love JR lots, we had lots of fun. I see myself getting serious with him, But I don't see myself marrying him. He's smart but an idiot at the same time. And he's stubborn. He wants to be a phamacist, but he's complaining about the classes being too hard and he's taking them at pima and only 2 classes. I want to tell him man up they are going to be hard regaurdless. It's pharmacy school if he wants to do it so he shouldn't be complaining. I don't see lien complaining like he does or anyone eles. 2 classes are nothing compared to a full schedule. I wish he worked with life rather than acting as if he were a victim. I hate people like that.