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So, I've been the bigest asshole lately. To "everyone". Well, i could list the reasons why. but you probably don't want to hear about a list. and in all honesty, the list doesn't matter. That list is just full of excuses. What I should be writing or saying is an apology and making things right. I Will make things right. I definatly will.
I love it when people are honest with me. =) You have no idea how much it means to me. Negative positive. It doesn't really matter. When people point out our conflicts or the flaws about me that bother them, I don't get angry. Well, sure I get a little sad, but it makes me happy and loved. I define it as "You care, so you are honest, You love me and still want to be friends with me...you only care thats why your being honest." I am still being encountered, when you could have ignored the problem and ignored me. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to become a better friend.
I realized. That that was exactly what I did to Jong. He bothered me and was so mean to me, I didn't want to deal with it. therefore I acted as if he didn't exist when he was right in frount of me. Thats probably the worst feeling ever. And, I feel like such a jerk. Also, I'm in a sidtuation where I can't tell him. Well, I don't want to. It doesn't bother me that much. It just makes me sad. I'll deal with it just a bit longer and then I'll tell him.
Yesterday, He came up to me when shaun was with me and said "Your drawing looks good....I'm just saying that to make you feel better." *sighs, he's such an asshole*
I remember I wasn't going to talk about him anymore but lets just leave it here, I'll let it slip a little. He has a beautiful smile. He's my eye candy in that class. I can't help but look. He's just pretty. Thats all he is for now. And "him himself" well, if I thought his personality was ugly I probably wouldn't see him as attractive as I do now. So, I do like him for himself. But it's not happening. so heres the end. Good bye feelings. hello...friendship.
I'm happy. Thoes last couple of days, I felt awful. My life, felt like a mess. School was a mess. My room was a mess. Although my room is still a mess, I feel as if my life is finally in order. I have everything I need. I know what I need to do. And I CAN get into architecture this year. Not only that, but the people around me, my friends, my family, my aquantainces are amazing. I'm so thankful for living.
I'm going to try this: "If I don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all"
I love it when people are honest with me. =) You have no idea how much it means to me. Negative positive. It doesn't really matter. When people point out our conflicts or the flaws about me that bother them, I don't get angry. Well, sure I get a little sad, but it makes me happy and loved. I define it as "You care, so you are honest, You love me and still want to be friends with me...you only care thats why your being honest." I am still being encountered, when you could have ignored the problem and ignored me. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to become a better friend.
I realized. That that was exactly what I did to Jong. He bothered me and was so mean to me, I didn't want to deal with it. therefore I acted as if he didn't exist when he was right in frount of me. Thats probably the worst feeling ever. And, I feel like such a jerk. Also, I'm in a sidtuation where I can't tell him. Well, I don't want to. It doesn't bother me that much. It just makes me sad. I'll deal with it just a bit longer and then I'll tell him.
Yesterday, He came up to me when shaun was with me and said "Your drawing looks good....I'm just saying that to make you feel better." *sighs, he's such an asshole*
I remember I wasn't going to talk about him anymore but lets just leave it here, I'll let it slip a little. He has a beautiful smile. He's my eye candy in that class. I can't help but look. He's just pretty. Thats all he is for now. And "him himself" well, if I thought his personality was ugly I probably wouldn't see him as attractive as I do now. So, I do like him for himself. But it's not happening. so heres the end. Good bye feelings. hello...friendship.
I'm happy. Thoes last couple of days, I felt awful. My life, felt like a mess. School was a mess. My room was a mess. Although my room is still a mess, I feel as if my life is finally in order. I have everything I need. I know what I need to do. And I CAN get into architecture this year. Not only that, but the people around me, my friends, my family, my aquantainces are amazing. I'm so thankful for living.
I'm going to try this: "If I don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all"