I haven't seen you in forevaaaah!
the summer is a hard season for me after having lived up north. tampa in general just doesn't seem to fit right anymore. i love this place...it's where i was born, where i grew up, where i've lived my entire life up until last year, but now more than ever, it just doesn't seen to fit.
that was a run on sentence. you can bite me if it bothers you. i'm not in a bad mood, i swear.
i think i have a fear of confronting people i don't know by myself. my neighbor is outside and my blinds and window are 'ajar' because i was listening to music from my room while doing yard work outside earlier today. i'm seriously afraid she may come over and try to start talking to me through the window. i don't know why i'm afraid of things like that, but i am. afterwards, i always feel better that i've spoken to someone new, but beforehand, i hate it and i usually hide myself so that i don't have to talk. i've hidden from the UPS guy before. it's weird because i can carry a conversation with a stranger pretty well. i'm so lame.
my tum-tum hurts...i'm sweaty and wearing dirty teni-pumps and haven't showered since wednesday evening. stink-asssss! at the disco, indeed.
justin is coming in 11 days. he's staying with me from the 20th to the 26th and i am sooooooooooo excited. we tried planning what we would do each day while he was here when we talked last night, but all we ended up with is that we just wanted to see eachother and hang out the whole time and that was all we needed to be happy. i was trying so hard to go stay up there with him but the 'rents said a big "no" last time he asked, and i only have three girl friends up in that area. amanda who lives in MD will be in italy, ash will be on vacay i think, and lisa is working hardcore and is with chris(her bf) when she's not. i guess i could ask one of my guy friends but i'd kinda feel like i was using them because i'd be with justin everyday anyway, so i'd rather just not ask. i also look up hotels in that area, and found one, but still, at $70+ a night, thats expensive if i try and stay for a week. maybe i will go and visit sometime later this summer. i really want to meet all of his friends and his family...but i guess that may just have to wait until next semester begins.
i'm gonna start learning how to drive with my mom next week. she has a bajillion days off so i'm pumped, and she finally got insurance for me to drive in her car so thats even cooler. with luck, i'll be able to drive up to school, and since i'm not planning on coming to tampa next summer, i will just keep my car up there=)
life is beautiful. love with justin is beyond anything i had ever ever hoped for. i seriously don't know what to do with myself most of the time because he is the only thing i think about. i know some people probably think that's unhealthy, but i bet those people aren't in love, and i know those people cannot begin to fathom the feelings we have for one another. words can't say.
that was a run on sentence. you can bite me if it bothers you. i'm not in a bad mood, i swear.
i think i have a fear of confronting people i don't know by myself. my neighbor is outside and my blinds and window are 'ajar' because i was listening to music from my room while doing yard work outside earlier today. i'm seriously afraid she may come over and try to start talking to me through the window. i don't know why i'm afraid of things like that, but i am. afterwards, i always feel better that i've spoken to someone new, but beforehand, i hate it and i usually hide myself so that i don't have to talk. i've hidden from the UPS guy before. it's weird because i can carry a conversation with a stranger pretty well. i'm so lame.
my tum-tum hurts...i'm sweaty and wearing dirty teni-pumps and haven't showered since wednesday evening. stink-asssss! at the disco, indeed.
justin is coming in 11 days. he's staying with me from the 20th to the 26th and i am sooooooooooo excited. we tried planning what we would do each day while he was here when we talked last night, but all we ended up with is that we just wanted to see eachother and hang out the whole time and that was all we needed to be happy. i was trying so hard to go stay up there with him but the 'rents said a big "no" last time he asked, and i only have three girl friends up in that area. amanda who lives in MD will be in italy, ash will be on vacay i think, and lisa is working hardcore and is with chris(her bf) when she's not. i guess i could ask one of my guy friends but i'd kinda feel like i was using them because i'd be with justin everyday anyway, so i'd rather just not ask. i also look up hotels in that area, and found one, but still, at $70+ a night, thats expensive if i try and stay for a week. maybe i will go and visit sometime later this summer. i really want to meet all of his friends and his family...but i guess that may just have to wait until next semester begins.
i'm gonna start learning how to drive with my mom next week. she has a bajillion days off so i'm pumped, and she finally got insurance for me to drive in her car so thats even cooler. with luck, i'll be able to drive up to school, and since i'm not planning on coming to tampa next summer, i will just keep my car up there=)
life is beautiful. love with justin is beyond anything i had ever ever hoped for. i seriously don't know what to do with myself most of the time because he is the only thing i think about. i know some people probably think that's unhealthy, but i bet those people aren't in love, and i know those people cannot begin to fathom the feelings we have for one another. words can't say.