decomposition and stagnation=my current state
big words are amazing. they make me smile all of the time. the bigger the better in this case...hah, but not all cases! big is not always better...trrrruust girls when they say that, mmk?
i took down all of the pictures on my walls except for my huge jack johnson poster, my jason mraz poster, an i<3u note from ash, my paintings(one of which is in the art show right now!!!!=), and a plexiglass picture collage...plus calender, schedule, etc.
it's rough packing. i don't want or need most of the things i brought up to school. i'm much smaller than i was when i came here, and i want to give away the clothes that don't fit anymore. i'm never going back to that, my last two years. plus, shipping all of thsi jazz is gonna be a p.i.t.a. fo' sho!
i don't enjoy useless gifts. i love things with meaning behind them, sure, but if you give me a stupid, hard, not cooshy 'i luv u' teddy/puppy/whatev from eckerd or cvs for valentines day, that really pisses me off. i don't see the thought behind that...it sounds shitty but its the truth. if you would really rather not spend the time looking for something that would be right for me, then don't buy me anything at all- TRUST me, it won't hurt my feelings.
i'm hungry...i haven't been eating well, or at all, for the past month. i will skip a meal or something, and then my stomach shrinks, so then i'm just not hungry, so then i don't go and eat when i should. then i snack on my roommates candy supply late at night. i can tell the difference in myself, in my health and skin and general movement and size(def. lost ten lbs)...i drag a little more these days, and i had leg weakness walking up four flights of stairs to class today because i hadn't eaten all day. i hate that i forget to take better care of myself sometimes=/ i am going to start running again with mis perritos en el verano.
today started off looking like it'd be a great day outside, but the weather changed and it appears that an obnoxious rainstorm is brewing. dont get me wrong; i love the rain! i love loud thunderstorms at times, but i have a feeling that this one will bother a lot of people, esp. because it's Thirsty Thursday, and no one likes to get dressed up just to get wet once they leave.
my mouth tastes of gasoline and peanutbutter...my stomach has been regurgitating acid all week, probably a result of not eating right. for everyone who doesn't believe acid reflux is a real thing, you can kiss my acidic bum- i wish ashleeeeeeee simpson hadn't given it such a bad name, not like it was 'coooool' to have it in the first place, but just now people think it's so fake and think they know so much about it. i should go to the doctor sometime this summer and start taking meds for it, esp. because i get it more often in florida than i do up herr. i need to go by el ob/gyn tooooo, cause i haven't been in forever, and honestly it's not that bad. i don't know why i'm talking about all of this stuff.
i'm typing like a fiend!!!!! i don't understand why, but i just keep going and going, like the energizer bunny or someone which severe ADHD.
i may hijack lis or ash and take 'em to zack's for din din. i doubt ash will come...just because i havent seen either of them today, but i have a feeling she's not doing so well because she skipped environmental studies today and that is her shit. plus, she's got a date with a mister zaccccch gallimore and tim 'the tool man' taylor at five. they're so cute... like an old married couple!
i called amanda to tell her i saw a dog that reminded me of her. hm...i'm basically a weird-ass and a half. haha..i'm thinking she's gonna hear the message and either laugh histerically, or never talk to me again out of shear and utter embarrassment.
i hope 80's night was swell- wasn't in the mood to go and dance, but i missed seeing tara's last and i feel wretched ab that=/ even though i've known her but a short time, she's a pretty badass chick and i'm so glad we got the opportunity to be friends.
sounds like i'm drunk. i'm talking entirely too much.
life is grand...pip pip!
i took down all of the pictures on my walls except for my huge jack johnson poster, my jason mraz poster, an i<3u note from ash, my paintings(one of which is in the art show right now!!!!=), and a plexiglass picture collage...plus calender, schedule, etc.
it's rough packing. i don't want or need most of the things i brought up to school. i'm much smaller than i was when i came here, and i want to give away the clothes that don't fit anymore. i'm never going back to that, my last two years. plus, shipping all of thsi jazz is gonna be a p.i.t.a. fo' sho!
i don't enjoy useless gifts. i love things with meaning behind them, sure, but if you give me a stupid, hard, not cooshy 'i luv u' teddy/puppy/whatev from eckerd or cvs for valentines day, that really pisses me off. i don't see the thought behind that...it sounds shitty but its the truth. if you would really rather not spend the time looking for something that would be right for me, then don't buy me anything at all- TRUST me, it won't hurt my feelings.
i'm hungry...i haven't been eating well, or at all, for the past month. i will skip a meal or something, and then my stomach shrinks, so then i'm just not hungry, so then i don't go and eat when i should. then i snack on my roommates candy supply late at night. i can tell the difference in myself, in my health and skin and general movement and size(def. lost ten lbs)...i drag a little more these days, and i had leg weakness walking up four flights of stairs to class today because i hadn't eaten all day. i hate that i forget to take better care of myself sometimes=/ i am going to start running again with mis perritos en el verano.
today started off looking like it'd be a great day outside, but the weather changed and it appears that an obnoxious rainstorm is brewing. dont get me wrong; i love the rain! i love loud thunderstorms at times, but i have a feeling that this one will bother a lot of people, esp. because it's Thirsty Thursday, and no one likes to get dressed up just to get wet once they leave.
my mouth tastes of gasoline and peanutbutter...my stomach has been regurgitating acid all week, probably a result of not eating right. for everyone who doesn't believe acid reflux is a real thing, you can kiss my acidic bum- i wish ashleeeeeeee simpson hadn't given it such a bad name, not like it was 'coooool' to have it in the first place, but just now people think it's so fake and think they know so much about it. i should go to the doctor sometime this summer and start taking meds for it, esp. because i get it more often in florida than i do up herr. i need to go by el ob/gyn tooooo, cause i haven't been in forever, and honestly it's not that bad. i don't know why i'm talking about all of this stuff.
i'm typing like a fiend!!!!! i don't understand why, but i just keep going and going, like the energizer bunny or someone which severe ADHD.
i may hijack lis or ash and take 'em to zack's for din din. i doubt ash will come...just because i havent seen either of them today, but i have a feeling she's not doing so well because she skipped environmental studies today and that is her shit. plus, she's got a date with a mister zaccccch gallimore and tim 'the tool man' taylor at five. they're so cute... like an old married couple!
i called amanda to tell her i saw a dog that reminded me of her. hm...i'm basically a weird-ass and a half. haha..i'm thinking she's gonna hear the message and either laugh histerically, or never talk to me again out of shear and utter embarrassment.
i hope 80's night was swell- wasn't in the mood to go and dance, but i missed seeing tara's last and i feel wretched ab that=/ even though i've known her but a short time, she's a pretty badass chick and i'm so glad we got the opportunity to be friends.
sounds like i'm drunk. i'm talking entirely too much.
life is grand...pip pip!