major mind update
i guess i shall update since everyone else is. i think im going to keep this in tact, just like i did to melo.
-my back pain has returned. i definity have to start walking and working out once mew returns home from new york
- i have a bunch of things planned for v-day. i think the best part of it is, that even if all my things suck, i'll still be happy that i get to spend the day with people i really care about, the whole day with derek, and mav and aubery and im sure at one point i'll see sergey. so i'll get to have one of the bigest showing you care days, with the poeple i care about the most.
-i've been missign derek since hes been in new york,hes been gone for about 4 days already and i find liqour sems to be the easyest way to ease the pain, i find teh more and more i drink.. the more i feel he's with me. its not his fault he had to go and that his grandmaas gonna die but it is his moms fault, so teh least i can do is get drunk and tend not to think about it so much.
-i havent been sleeping well, in the past four days ive accoplished about 8 hours of sleep. one time a solid 5 hours (from drinking so much i passed out- drinking is also to aid my sleeping) and last night when sergey spent the night i slept for about 2 to 3 hours but i kept tossing and turning and i couldnt sleep.. i miss my mono,.. most importantly derek
-a bonus is at least while hes gone i can sceme for v-day (vday sounds like d day- dooms day, which for most couples it is when something goes wrong) like for mav and aubery it seems liek it oculd go eitehr v or d day because auberys finiking out about what to get mav and how to make it such a big day and mavs just liek eh.. i have everything already planned (advice for aubery : what do you think about when you think about mav, what do you see, feel , say.. follow your heart, think of what he liek sv the best and intertwine it wiht something you know youd like to do)
-i've been writing a little bit more poetry since dereks been gone, not cause hes gone but becuase now i got alot more alone time, which id rather not prefer, and not only alone time but un-sober time *mixes the last bit of tequila wiht coke* hmm.. and it begins.. the erasing..
-my back pain has returned. i definity have to start walking and working out once mew returns home from new york
- i have a bunch of things planned for v-day. i think the best part of it is, that even if all my things suck, i'll still be happy that i get to spend the day with people i really care about, the whole day with derek, and mav and aubery and im sure at one point i'll see sergey. so i'll get to have one of the bigest showing you care days, with the poeple i care about the most.
-i've been missign derek since hes been in new york,hes been gone for about 4 days already and i find liqour sems to be the easyest way to ease the pain, i find teh more and more i drink.. the more i feel he's with me. its not his fault he had to go and that his grandmaas gonna die but it is his moms fault, so teh least i can do is get drunk and tend not to think about it so much.
-i havent been sleeping well, in the past four days ive accoplished about 8 hours of sleep. one time a solid 5 hours (from drinking so much i passed out- drinking is also to aid my sleeping) and last night when sergey spent the night i slept for about 2 to 3 hours but i kept tossing and turning and i couldnt sleep.. i miss my mono,.. most importantly derek
-a bonus is at least while hes gone i can sceme for v-day (vday sounds like d day- dooms day, which for most couples it is when something goes wrong) like for mav and aubery it seems liek it oculd go eitehr v or d day because auberys finiking out about what to get mav and how to make it such a big day and mavs just liek eh.. i have everything already planned (advice for aubery : what do you think about when you think about mav, what do you see, feel , say.. follow your heart, think of what he liek sv the best and intertwine it wiht something you know youd like to do)
-i've been writing a little bit more poetry since dereks been gone, not cause hes gone but becuase now i got alot more alone time, which id rather not prefer, and not only alone time but un-sober time *mixes the last bit of tequila wiht coke* hmm.. and it begins.. the erasing..