I still love you....

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Its been a week sence eryn has been gone. I never knew wat pain was until i lost the person i love. Its lyk u cant breathe u cant sleep,u cant eat, its lyk everything seems not ok. Im tryin to be soo strong cuz this is wat she wants and this is wat is gonna make her happy. I just want her to be happy, cuz then maybe she will wanna be wit me. My semi thing is on April 15th, im not goin cuz i have my baby's play, which im wicked excited to go to. Im gonna be there front row..wit a HUGE thing of flowers....shes so amazing. I have 25 days left till i get to see her. I really wish she would want to see me before then but ya no. Im tryin soo hard ot give her time nad not go see her, its soo hard. But i have to respect her wishes, cuz i love her. And as much as this hurts its gonna make her happy in the end, and thats worth it to me. To see her happy is worth everything to me. I just wish she could of been happy wit me. But im no rpincess charming, or dream come true. Im just me, thats all. I hope in the end thats enough to win her back. I hope that im enough to steal her heart, i long for the day i get to hold her in my arms and kiss her lips and no shes my baby again. But only eryn nos when that time will be. And untill then i just got to wait and be patience cuz the more i try to get her back the further away she goes. Hmm yeah well im gettin more and more upset...as im writtin this, i think im gonna get in my feety pj's snuggle up to my eryn book and pillow and lay in bed and watch TV and just wait for her to get home. I hope she is doin better today, i love when she has good days.

I love you baby girl, never forget it, please......
And i hope u get happy real soon....and i wish u the best of luck wit everything ur goin through, wish i could be the one who is there to hold you hand.