Is this it
I'm not sure what's wrong with me these days. It's like I've become this cynical, self-consuming mass of blackness and bitterness and I can't stand seeing other people happy and excelling at/getting the things that I want but can't have. It eats at me and it builds on its momentum and soon I am vitriol and I am poison and I know this is terrible of me hell it's monstrous and repugnant but is it so wrong to just want things to work out on some level and is it so wrong to be jealous and
Is it so wrong to acknowledge it?
Sometimes I feel like a monster for being the only person to voice out my deepest, darkest thoughts.
Maybe I am.
Fuck this.