. . . pain strikes like lightening and tears fall just like rain . . .
i always hate when people post depressing journal entries. and now im going to. i dont know why, but for the past like week i feel like ive been on the verge of a breakdown. every little thing makes me feel like i am about to cry. stupid things that none of you would care about but that mean a lot to me. its easter. the other day in i.d.a. they were all talking about how they all have their easter egg hunts and how they love them. when they said that i had to leave the store. i used to have easter eggs hunts every year. ever since my grampa got too sick we havent been able to have them anymore. when i was a kid easter was one of my favourite holidays. he even gave us money in some of the eggs he hid and it was awesome. if you were really lucky you got the 2$ egg. it doesnt sound like much but to a little kid it was the world. now he cant even go out. tonight he got admitted to the hospital . my aunts flying in from alberta. they dont think he has much longer. i dont know what to do . my mom is really stressed out and i dont know how to make her happy. and im so moody i dont know what to do about that either. ive been a bitch to everyone. i snap at everyone for everything and i dont even mean to.im usually such a happy bubbly person, but lately it feels like i dont even have the energy to smile. im always tired, and i always just need to sleep. ive been going to bed at like 9:00 lately. either that or napping all afternoon. i just cant do it. im sorry. you probably havent even read this far. you probably got bored after the first sentence...god not another stupid entry about how someone hates life...so im sorry. just had to get that out. i think i just need a break. from everything. and everyone.