awkward.
i always notice things about people. all the really negative things. and i want to fix them immediately. i always stare at people in my classes and just look at them, or the way they move their mouth, or talk or their mannerism... and just come up with all these weird imperfections.
the weird thing is i am secure with myself. you know people say "well you only say bad things about people, to make yourself feel beter." i am only insecure about my arms. and occasionally my asscrack hanging out. i will just look at people and hear them talk and decide i hate them and they are stupid looking, or unintelligent.
this makes me feel like a bad person. sometimes i vocalize it, and sometimes i keep it to myself and laugh about it. and laugh at people and how stupid they are.
i really dont understand it.
the weird thing is i am secure with myself. you know people say "well you only say bad things about people, to make yourself feel beter." i am only insecure about my arms. and occasionally my asscrack hanging out. i will just look at people and hear them talk and decide i hate them and they are stupid looking, or unintelligent.
this makes me feel like a bad person. sometimes i vocalize it, and sometimes i keep it to myself and laugh about it. and laugh at people and how stupid they are.
i really dont understand it.