so.turn.up.the.corners.of.your.lips.part.them.and.feel.my.fingertips.trace.the.moment.fall.forever.
it's funny...i quit my two jobs which were the largest pressure point in my life, but since i haven't been able to find another job...i just feel lazy. i've been going to the gym like 4-5 days a week, and i do my coar (community outreach and resources if you don't know) hours and mentor too--but i don't think i'm doing enough. i'm only taking four classes, because that's all i need to take...and there were no other classes that seemed interesting to me. so why take an extra class if i don't need or want it? next semester i'll probably take five classes, because i'm sure i'll find a random english class that i don't need but want to take. so whatever. but i guess i just feel lazy anyway. i need to make sure that i have a job set up for next year, because mer and i are living in greenbrier which isn't exactly cheap--plus i'll have to drive every day, so that's gas money. and i have to pay some of the rent, and then there's food money. oh my parents are going to hate me if i ask for money. this summer i need to work a lot, and i can't go traveling to italy again. i need to make money that i won't owe to my parents so that i actually have some saved up. and next year i also want to get a miniature pig or a puppy. the problem with that though is that my mom would freak out if i took a pig home with me, but after seeing peter's pig, i really really want one. they're the fifth smartest animal or something like that too. and oh their noses rock my world. i'm such a tool. oh well. tomorrow after classes spring break begins; first, i'm driving halfway to ny, to villanova to see lauren and my sicily lovers for the night. then friday afternoon i'm driving the other four hours home to ny to be home for the week. i'm glad, because last time i was home i was so about scott that i barely saw my family. plus, lots of my friends won't even be home...so i'll just be in my house with my new really cool washer and dryer set. oh they're so cool. i'm bringing all of my bedding home to wash in them (ocd much?). i might work at my mom's salon too though, since i haven't been working...because i really need money super badly. i haven't been going out to eat much, because i've been trying to be healthier, so that saves money. but still. i have expensive taste, which i hate, but i need money so that i don't have to bother my parents. because they're going to cut me off. i would have cut me off when i was twelve if i was them. but i do have the greatest parents ever...so that's always good.