i.didn't.mean.to.give.you.chills.with.the.way.that.i.kiss.
what i wonder is, people date, stop dating, and that's fine. but when you love someone they sometimes become your best friend. even if you have other friends, other best friends, but this person--well this person knows you inside out. then you break up, and then you lose the relationship part, obviously...but what happens to the friendship? that's gone too? so my best friend for the past three years, if we never get back together...then that's it? that's stupid. i wish we could do eternal sunshine and just erase a person then. because who needs this crap? who? no one should ever date then, if it'll only end. because we're all setting ourselves up. we're strategically placing these bowling pins and then putting the bumpers up in the lane so that the ball will knock them over. screw that. the whole love thing can kiss my ass, to be perfectly honest. i'm not doing it again for a while, and for that matter, no relationships either. this is all crap. i'm not giving into this thing we're supposed to do, self-inflicted pain. well, maybe i will give in eventually, but i still think it's dumb. and i still wish i wouldn't. because boy do i hate the whole 'broken heart' bullshit. i'm boycotting...at least for a little while. (we'll see if her first and only love will be the last for a while or if she's bluffing.) and even if he and i do get back together or if i meet someone else or whatever, the record should state that love is worthless and we're all victims of a conspiracy...obviously.