he just doesn't understand... :(
When i told my bf about live journal and that it was a way for people to just vent or get out what they're trying to say without having to worry about being judged or having to censor what they say he told me that he thought it was stupid. Which actually really upset me, made me cry, and not be able to fall asleep until six in the morning. I have a history of hurting myself and it also made me want to cut again but i didn't. I know that seems ridiculous to want to harm myself because of that but it just made me feel like wow, if you think that's stupid then you think I am stupid and it also hurt because he knows about my past not just with my cutting but also with my miscarriage and state of depression. He complains that we don't really talk to each other and I just get mad and walk away. Well I cannot open up to him and feel comfortable expressing myself if he cannot even try to wrap his mind around the fact that I am a sad and unhappy person and just need support sometimes even when in his eyes he doesn't see why I feel the way I feel.