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I want to... I don't even know what I want to do. I'll admit it to myself. I like him. But I'm just not in the right position. I lost my chances. (I think)
I hate it when he just randomly touches me. I hate it when he tries to tickle me. It just makes everything worse.
His little brother: Why don't you kiss her?
Him: Not with you around.
Why did that surprise me? Because he always said that last year when I knew he liked me. When he first came this year something came up about kissing me and he said that would never happen or something like that. Which it shouldn't because he has a girlfriend so it didn't surprise me when he said it. But then yesterday he said that and it made me wonder if he had broke things off with his girlfriend. Later I found out he didn't but it still surprised me.
I really need to keep any feelings for him in the back of my mind. If I could just keep them out of the way, the little things he says and does wouldn't have such and effect on me.
Yesterday when he was over we were laying on my bed, (actually he was on my bed I was sitting on the floor against it) watching Independence Day and he just started lightly touching the back of my neck. I asked him if he was trying to tickle me and he said no. So I guess... I don't even know what he was doing. But it was nice.
I hate it when he just randomly touches me. I hate it when he tries to tickle me. It just makes everything worse.
His little brother: Why don't you kiss her?
Him: Not with you around.
Why did that surprise me? Because he always said that last year when I knew he liked me. When he first came this year something came up about kissing me and he said that would never happen or something like that. Which it shouldn't because he has a girlfriend so it didn't surprise me when he said it. But then yesterday he said that and it made me wonder if he had broke things off with his girlfriend. Later I found out he didn't but it still surprised me.
I really need to keep any feelings for him in the back of my mind. If I could just keep them out of the way, the little things he says and does wouldn't have such and effect on me.
Yesterday when he was over we were laying on my bed, (actually he was on my bed I was sitting on the floor against it) watching Independence Day and he just started lightly touching the back of my neck. I asked him if he was trying to tickle me and he said no. So I guess... I don't even know what he was doing. But it was nice.