aint never scurrd...

Oct 28, 2004 12:01

i came (heh heh, i came) to the realization the other day that im damn, damn scared of commitment. i think id be willing to admit that im horrified by it. ive known now for a while that i dont like the thought of it. but it was just the other day that i realized how much it really freaks me out. i dont even know if its the concept of commitment itself as much as it is the thought of being attached to someone. scary shit. i realized how much this scares me when i caught myself looking for reasons to not like ashley. the girl has done nothing wrong, yet here i am looking for a reason to get rid of her cause im convinced this whole attachment thing really blows. granted it hasnt been long at all w/ her, but this is usually about the time that i get rid of girls. i think the longest ive been with anyone since danielle has been exactly two weeks. ashley is coming up on two weeks, its weird to realize that this is usually where i turn into the biggest prick to get her to leave. that or ill ignore her for a while til she gets the point. oh well, we'll see how this one plays out.
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