"shes living her life just like a movie star"

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*sigh*
today was one of the worst days of my life
my mom and i had an argument that will forever change us
i dont want to get into things
but things were said
things i dont even wanna repeat
all true too...
both of our eyes were opened
in the end is it positive that we talked
but the process was so painful
were "okay" now though

i had to drive her to mira mesa and drive around there for a while
traffic traffic traffic

i have a KILLER headache from bawling... and on top of that my non-waterproof mascara flooded my eyes...
so yeah ouch

i brought my baby dinner tonight
i lost him to grand theft auto today
i saw it coming and still i wasnt prepared
and who knows when i'll get him back lol

that game does look dope though

anyways time for relaxing
its been nothing but stress, traffic, and tears all day

i'm off tomorrow and so is mike
but i am probably not gonna see him at all
again, the grand theft auto
kinda sad but i totally understand lol

so yeah anyone wanna hang out tomorrow?
ooh but itll be raining... i dont wanna drive much
ok nevermind! j/k

ok ok ok i'm REALLY going now
bye bye


i wanted to cut soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad today. oh my goodness.
i am resisting like no other too.
i really dont know how i am resisting... its almost all i can think about.
i need a way to escape.
cuz i am getting all these cravings lately to drink and smoke and cut
not good
i feel like im ready to explode inside

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