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Sometimes I wonder why i didn't kiss elliott right then and there.
I really wonder. Why didn't I? It had been in me for so long .... probably 3 years until that moment.
It was raining, I was in his car. I was in New Jersey...
I finally wrote that email and of course--- to my dissapointment.
He has a child now. Probably a beautiful one. I've probably dissolved into his past memories... to be lost.
It's beautifully sad.
It's not regret. It's not that at all... so odd how it all came to be this way now.
How it all came to this.
I really wonder. Why didn't I? It had been in me for so long .... probably 3 years until that moment.
It was raining, I was in his car. I was in New Jersey...
I finally wrote that email and of course--- to my dissapointment.
He has a child now. Probably a beautiful one. I've probably dissolved into his past memories... to be lost.
It's beautifully sad.
It's not regret. It's not that at all... so odd how it all came to be this way now.
How it all came to this.