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Erin's asleep - she's taking a nap. This is my third day off in a row and it's nice. She finally got a day off and we're not really doing anything together, which is a bummer. I know she's worn out from a long long week at work so it's alright she gets some rest.
We bought the first season of Lost and Laguna Beach at Target for super cheap the day after Thanksgiving. I've watched 15 episodes of Lost already, it's really good. I'm boycotting Laguna Beach. I can find enough drama in other places.
I've been having some troubles with work recently. I haven't really been enjoying it, not that work is supposed to be fun, but I guess I've just become jaded toward what I do. Some of the people I work with are real fucking assholes, and some of them are genuine, good guys. The tricky thing about my job is that it doesn't matter if you like them or not, they may save your life someday or you may be called upon to save theirs. It makes for some interesting dynamics when you get down to brass tacks.
I think to do what I do you have to put it out of your mind you could potentially die - just doing your job. I don't really look at the risks anymore, I just show up on time and do what I'm told to do. One of the reasons I chose submarines was the romance, the danger, the excitement. Something I could be apart of that not everyone can do. I often forget (mostly on purpose, so I don't lose my mind) about why I chose this path.
If I were to become a civilian again I think I would have a hard time working in an environment where no one is really held responsible, not like you are hundreds of feet underwater. Even though I don't spend all my time at work underway, that attitude is still projected through everyday life onboard.
If one person makes a mistake and falls asleep on watch, or doesn't check a valve or gauge correctly, or isn't paying attention to what they're doing - they can get everyone killed. I know - I can attest to this personally. It's not like an office job answering phones and wiping customers asses. I guess that's what drew me to it in the first place.
I just need to not forget my intentions. It helps that Erin is proud of me. I'm very lucky to have her.
So, in conclusion (if you actually read this far) - take pride in what you do, and love those who stand by you.
We bought the first season of Lost and Laguna Beach at Target for super cheap the day after Thanksgiving. I've watched 15 episodes of Lost already, it's really good. I'm boycotting Laguna Beach. I can find enough drama in other places.
I've been having some troubles with work recently. I haven't really been enjoying it, not that work is supposed to be fun, but I guess I've just become jaded toward what I do. Some of the people I work with are real fucking assholes, and some of them are genuine, good guys. The tricky thing about my job is that it doesn't matter if you like them or not, they may save your life someday or you may be called upon to save theirs. It makes for some interesting dynamics when you get down to brass tacks.
I think to do what I do you have to put it out of your mind you could potentially die - just doing your job. I don't really look at the risks anymore, I just show up on time and do what I'm told to do. One of the reasons I chose submarines was the romance, the danger, the excitement. Something I could be apart of that not everyone can do. I often forget (mostly on purpose, so I don't lose my mind) about why I chose this path.
If I were to become a civilian again I think I would have a hard time working in an environment where no one is really held responsible, not like you are hundreds of feet underwater. Even though I don't spend all my time at work underway, that attitude is still projected through everyday life onboard.
If one person makes a mistake and falls asleep on watch, or doesn't check a valve or gauge correctly, or isn't paying attention to what they're doing - they can get everyone killed. I know - I can attest to this personally. It's not like an office job answering phones and wiping customers asses. I guess that's what drew me to it in the first place.
I just need to not forget my intentions. It helps that Erin is proud of me. I'm very lucky to have her.
So, in conclusion (if you actually read this far) - take pride in what you do, and love those who stand by you.